"Luke, I cant do this." I said pulling away.
Butterflies went crazy in my stomack.
His face dropped.
"W-why not? Whats w-wrong?" He pouted.
"I-I think we should go back now." I stuttered turning away from Luke.
I started walking back towards the hotel.
"Whats wrong?" He asked running towards me.
"I-I dont know." I stuttered trying not to look at him.
I ran back to the hotel room and up the stairs to our room. I jumped in my bed and cried myself to sleep.
I woke up to see the sun shining in the window. I lazily rolled over but failed becouse I bumped into someone. I looked at them and it was Luke. He was sleeping. I turned over and got out of my bed and walked over to my suitcase.
I got out some black Nike socks and some Nike shorts that you would go running in or go to practice in or something I dont know how to explain them. I also got out a tank top and a cut out shirt with basic undergarments. I ran in the bathroom and took a quick shower. I got out and dried my hair and threw it in a messy bun after I got dressed. I stepped out in the room to find a nervous looking Luke.
"Emily!" He shouted.
"What?" I asked quite confused.
"You scared me. I didnt know where you were." He said embrasing me in a hug.
"I was just taking a shower." I mumbled.
"You scared me last night. You dont know hoe glad I was to see you in here asleep. I was worried sick so I climbed in the bed with you. I hope you didnt care." He said neevously.
"Its fine." I said throwing my dirty clothes into my bag.
"Tell me why you did that last night." Luke demanded grabbing my arms.
"I dont know." I said looking at the ground.
"Please." He begged.
I grabbed my purse and ran to the bathroom slamming and locking the door. I rummaged through my purse until I found my blades in the little bag I keep them in. I got out one and pressed it against my skin and sliced my wrist alot. I cried. Luke banged on the door and yelled for me to open the door.
"Emily, I swear if you dont open this door im going to break it down and come in there with you." He said.
"No Luke." I yelled.
"Your crying. Open the fucking door right now." He demanded.
I unlocked it and he ran in and saw what I was doing.
"EMILY WHAT THE FUCK?" He yelled.
"LUKE, THATS WHY I DIDNT WANT YOU IN HERE. BUT YOU WOULDNT SHUT UP!" I cried.
He ran over to me and pulled me into a tight hug.
"Baby, if you ever feel like you need to cut, come to me. I'll help you. I care about you. I dont want you doing this. I cant imagine my life without you. I really like you. Infact, I think I love you. I wanna date you for a really long time and get married and have kids and grow old together. Im serious about this. I dont wanna have that with anyone else, Emily. I love you." Luke cried.
"Luke, I dont know what to say." I said as tears ran down my face.
"Tell me this, do you feel the same way for me? Like if I asked you to be my girlfriend, what would you say?" He smirked.
"I'd say this: Luke, your an amazing person and I do feel the same way about you. I really do. I just dont think im ready for a boyfriend yet. Im sorry. Please dont give up on me though. I need you. I think I love you too. I ran off last night when we were getting ready to kiss becouse I was nervous. I really like you and I was scared that you wouldnt like it or I wouldnt like it or it meant nothing. So I ran off and cried myself to sleep." I said.
"I never wanna make you cry yourself to sleep again. I feel like a jerk now. Im really sorry Emily. Im never gonna give up on you so dont even let that run across your mind. And I respect the fact that you arent ready for a boyfriend yet. When its time, let me know. But im not gonna give up. Im not gonna quit calling you cute names or holding your hand or taking you on dates." He smiled as his hand slid up to my hair.
"Thanks Luke. Your honestly the nicest guy ive ever met. Your so sweet. But heres a question, would you get mad if Calum or Niall took me on a date again? Or if I went on a date with Matt or Nash or somebody?" I asked.
"I would have to this about that princess." He smiled at me.
"Can we go in there? This is wierd ya know hugging in a bathroom." I laughed as he broke the hug.
"Right. Lets go in there." He laughed turning the water off in the sink.
He jumped across his bed and pulled me down with him. He layed on his side and pulled me towards him facing the same way he was so my back was towards him. He wrapped his arms around me and burried his head in my neck.
"If I go to sleep, please dont be upset. I barely slept last night. I was so worried about you." He sighed.
"I wont be upset. I wanna sleep too." I smiled.
He hugged me tighter.
"I love you Emily." Luke said as he kissed my neck.
"I love you too Luke." I giggled.
"Do you wanna sleep right away?" He asked and i could tell he was smirking.
"Whatever you wanna do. But no sex." I said.
"Awwe, why not?" He asked.
"I dont want to. Its morning. Mabey at night." I said.
"No sex, but can we do some other stuff?" He said as I turned to face him.
I smirked as he slid his hand up my shirt...
THIS NEXT CHAPTER IS AKWARD OK BYE.