Ever since she walked in the doors. Ever since she said hi. Ever since we hugged for the first time, i felt it! I really like this girl. I dont know if she feels the same way. Everytime i see her, i get nervous. Butterflies flying around in my stomack. My face gets red and i cant barely talk. Normal when i like a girl i can just get nervous then ask her out. But in Emily's case, NO WAY! This is WAY different than any other normal girl. I cant just go up and ask her out. Im no scared. To scared to be rejected. Rejected by her. Theres me, sitting here alone wishing I could read her mind. Wishing i could make her love me. Wishing i could win her over somehow. I hate the feeling of wanting something you cant have. Even if you love it with all your heart. Like little kid wanting candy at a store. They know their mom will say no, but they ask and beg anyway. I need to get my mind off her. Music. Writing music takes me away and helps me. I pulled out my notebook and started.
'She's so out of reach
And im finding it hard cause she makes me feel
Makes me feel
That i try, that i try, that im tryin to hard
Cause im not being me
And its getting me down
Cause she makes me think
Makes me think
That i try, that i try, that im tryin to hard again'
As soon as i was done with the song, i heard a knock on my door. I got up. I walked over and opened the door to find Emily.
"Hey Cal!" She said cheerfully.
"Hey Em" i said nervously.
"So, its 8 already. Remember how you asked me to go with you and get breakfast? Are you ready to go?" She asked.
"Oh yeah. Let me just get my shoes." I said.
She had on some capri skinny jeans with cuffed bottoms. She also had on a Nirvana shirt that looked just like Luke's.-.- She has on yellow Toms. Her hair was brushed and straigtened. She pulled it back into a ponytail. She had on lip gloss and eye liner. She looked so perfect (standing there hehe). I have on black skinny jeans and black vans. I put a Nasa shirt becouse its the first thing i picked up. My hair is messy so i pulled a bennie over my head.
"So, whereya wanna go Cal Bear? She asked.
Ok cutest nickname ever! *squeee*
"IDK Calmily" i said.
"Whats Calmily?" She asked.
"Our names combined" i said confindently.
"Oh our ship name" she said.
"Yep, our ship name" i said.