"Have you thought about being our manager, Lily?" Mikey asks me while we're in the band van. Before we left, they had insisted that I sat in the front, though I'm not sure if it's because they want me to say yes to being their manager, or because they want me to sit next to Ashton, who is driving.
"I've been thinking about it," I say, a smile dancing on my lips. I already decided that I would most definitely be their manager. I think that without knowing it, the boys and I sort of need one another, in a strange way. While Kara has been my absolute best friend for nearly three years, and I have other friends in school, and even talked to Luke, Calum, and Mikey on occasion when I would visit to, as usual, tell them to keep the noise down. But it wasn't until that day when all four of them were at Luke's house a week ago that I felt like I was a bit more complete than before. But, then again, maybe that's just Ashton.
I've been trying to tell myself that I don't really have a thing for him. We've been together only four times, and never talked outside of the group of the six of us, give or take Kara. It's honestly probably impossible for me to actually like him. But, I have finally admitted to myself- after about three hours of Kara insisting that I love him- that I am somewhat infatuated with him. I don't even know if I like him, and maybe I never will. But I find myself trying to figure out what it is that he likes and do things to try to get him to notice me in the most subtle way. And, honestly, I love it when I look at him only to see that he's already looking at me.
"Lily," Ashton says, briefly looking over at me before turning his eyes back to the road. "I'd really like it if you were our manager."
"Aweee, Ashy-poo!" I say, loudly, which turns his cheeks slightly red. "I decided that I most definitely want to be your manager! But, I'm not too sure what all goes into that," I admit.
"Basically, you plan our shows, make sure we're on time, and come to our shows to make sure that we're not goofing around the entire time," Luke explains, and it doesn't sound too hard, and also gives me an idea that I may have to try out this evening, when I return home.
Five Seconds Of Summer is playing at the same venue they took me to last weekend, and the same lady is there to manage what goes on. "Hi, there again," she exclaims. I notice that she wears a name tag, unlike last week, that reads 'Barb'.
"Hi, Barb! I'm Lily, since I don't think that I properly introduced myself before. This is Kara," I say, gesturing to my best friend who is awkwardly standing beside me. "Same set up as last week?"
"You got it, hun," she says with a wink. "Thanks for the help."
When we finish setting up, I make my way toward the front of the small crowd with Kara following closely behind me, excitement clearly filling her body in anticipation to watch the boys perform. She has wanted to ever since she first heard that Calum was in a band. "They're really good, especially when they're on stage," I say, smiling widely at her.
We decide to stop at McDonald's once again on the way home, even though I expressed that I'm extremely tired and need to get to sleep to do my homework for Monday tomorrow morning. Unluckily, no one seems to care what I think. In all actuality, I plan to go home to try to find One Direction's manager's email address, so that I can send him an email about checking our boys out, since Louis has already expressed his personal interest in them.
I find myself seated in between Luke and Ashton, which is more strange for me now, after hearing their miniature fight over me this morning. While I'm feeling awkward, as well as Calum is, I think that Mikey is very much enjoying his spot beside Kara, but I think I'm the only one paying enough attention to notice this, and make a mental note to ask Kara what she thinks about him later tonight.
"Liliana," Calum says, causing me to snap out of my personal trance. "Have you thought about where you want to go on your date with Ashton?"
I feel my cheeks get hot, and am unsure what to say for a few seconds, while everyone turns to face me. "Uh, no, I haven't. I didn't know if Ashton remembered that or not," I admit, slightly embarrassed.
Calum chuckles, "Ashton could never be drunk enough to forget our very own Liliana agreeing to go on a date with him!" I turn my face toward Ashton, and smile a very small smile, almost as an apology that Calum continually decides to make his crush on me well-known to everyone.
"I mean, wherever you'd want to go is fine with me," I say to him, feeling very strange.
"Lily, if you didn't mean to say yes or were under the influence or whatever, we don't have to go." I can tell that he's upset that I hadn't mentioned anything about it, seeing as I assumed he had forgotten.
I smile at him, "I didn't have a single drop of alcohol last night, Ash. I want to go out on a date with you." As I say this, I ignore Luke's slight huff from the other side of me as I train my eyes on Ashton's smiling face.
"So, would Friday be good for you? I can come pick you up at, like, 7, or something." I chuckle slightly at his nervousness, which is seriously adorable.
"That sounds good to me," I say, turning to listen to Mikey attempting to talk to Kara. While Ashton has always been a bit more elusive towards me, with the two of us having only shared tiny intimate- if you could even call Ashton burying his head into my side last night intimate- moments since we met last week, Mikey is making it very obvious right now that he is interested. Mikey has known Kara for pretty much all of our lives, seeing as our school isn't exactly a large one, and everyone knows everyone there, but has never shown any interest in her. Then again, this is probably since everyone has always known that Kara has a huge thing for Calum.
I want to head straight inside when Ashton drops me and Luke off outside of our houses- not without giving my hand the slightest squeeze before I got out- but Luke has other plans. Instead of heading over toward his house, he follows me to mine, and suggests we go into my backyard. Nervously, I follow.
We lay on the hammock that my parents bought last year. It's very large and easily fits the two of us, my head at one end and his at the other, though, his feet are way above my head, due to his extreme tallness. "I'm kind of jealous, you know."
I nod, even though he can't see my head. "I heard you all arguing this morning."
"I just sort of thought that we might be that couple our parents want us to be, you know? I've always had the littlest crush on you, and Mikey is the only one who ever knew, but when you decided to start hanging around with us, I was so excited. But you sort of made it clear that you have a thing for Ash."
I feel sort of bad, because I wasn't expecting for Luke to like me until I had heard it this morning. "I'm sorry, Luke. If I had known sooner, maybe things could be different, but there's really just something about Ashton that I'm drawn to, almost. I can't really explain it, because I'm not even sure that I like him, you know?"
"I just hope you're both happy. And if it's Ashton that makes you happy, then I want you and him to be together. I wish I could make you happy, but I'll get over it."
I sigh, and grab his hand in mine, in the most friendly way possible, and we lay like that until nearly two in the morning, not talking, just listening to the sounds around us. And I think I've found my best friend.