"Agh! Niall stop!" I laugh pushing him away. He continues to tickle my sides, laughing.
Today was the photo-shoot and I came upset because of last nite's meeting. Jesse informed me that I was going to be extremely busy this up coming week. I'm not excited at all.
"Not until I see a smile!" He shouts.
"I'm smiling, I'm smiling!" I slap him away catching my breath. He backs away letting me breathe after a while. I scrunch my nose, sticking my tongue out at him.
"I guess I'm going to have to tickle you again." He inches closer to me.
"No more!" I back away. I bump into someone stopping on my tracks. I snap my head back to see Harry standing in the doorway. He looks down at me, walking past me not saying a word.
"Oh, sorry Harry." I apologize, waiting to see if I get a single word out of him.
"Whatever." He grumbles.
"Whoa. What's your problem?" Niall stops him.
"Nothing!" He growls at Niall. He brushes him off continuing to walk past us.
"I'm sorry for being the jerk Harry!" I yell at him. He stops turning to me.
"Apology not excepted!" He spits at me.
"For what?" Niall looks over at us both.
"It's better for you not to know." I murmur, glancing over at him.
"If I'm not back at Simon's by tonight, don't go looking for me!" Harry shouts.
"Don't you dare leave us! We're still on tour!" Niall exclaims.
"I could do whatever I want! I'm Harry Styes for heaven sakes! If I want to leave, I'll leave!"
"Harry, you can't just keep running away from problems! It's not going to fix anything! How do I know? Well, I lost everything before my fame. My family, friends....everything." He stops looking at the ground. "I know how you feel." I say in almost a whisper.
"What else?" He asks without turning around.
"What else what?"
"What else did you lose?"
I take in a deep breath exhaling it out slowly. "I especially lost myself. Who I was before all this hit me." Tears form at the corner of my eyes as I looked up at him again. He turns facing me from across the room.
"Meghan, I'm so-" I push Niall back as I ran out to the bathroom around the corner. I lock myself up in a stall, siting on the toilet seat bringing my knees up to my chest.
"Meghan?" I heard Niall call from outside. I sniffle grabbing paper from beside me wiping my nose. I hear the door open, footsteps following after.
"Meghan, talk to me."
"There's nothing to talk about Niall."
"Then what was that about? You ran out before Harry could finish his sentence."
"I was just being stupid. It's a habit of mine running out of a conversation." I lie, hoping he would go away.
"Meghan, I know we haven't known each other for a long time, but you could tell me anything. You know that, right?" He says.
I walk out of the stall sitting myself against the wall beside Niall. He slides down beside me staring at me. What did I need to talk about? It's not like anyone has ever listened to me.
"I don't want to talk about it Niall." I turn away hiding my face.
"You started it already, so now you need to finish."
I take in a breath, letting it out slowly. "I lost everything. That's it. There's nothing much besides from that. The life I'm living ruined my relationship with friends and family. I haven't truly gained anything from becoming famous. You guys must live a perfect life though." I bury my face in my hands sobbing.
"Meghan...." Niall sighs. I feel his arm around me bringing me closer to him. "No one has a perfect life. You may think others have greater lives, but in reality it's just behind the curtains. I've had struggles with family before and I still do. Did you ever hear about the time I went to my brothers wedding back in Ireland?" I shake me head.
"No, I haven't." I reply.
"Well, after they were married, I went outside of the church to see fans surrounding the exit. I was angry, but also upset to see fans there at my own brothers wedding. I ran inside the church going into a restroom stall doing the same thing as you just did." His voice cracks as he spoke.
"That must of been horrible. I'm sorry that happened to your family." I wipe my tears away glancing over at him.
"I am too." He whispers.
"Niall, it wasn't your fault that fans bombarded the wedding. But besides from that, what I went through is way different. I no longer talk to the people I used to know. Not even my own brothers that I used to be close to."
"Living a rich and famous life isn't always the best."
"I learned that the hard way. I never wanted to become a celebrity as most say. I just wanted to be some random girl on Youtube that loved to entertain people."
"Well, you got more than you expected." Niall slightly chuckles.
"Yeah, I sure did." I stand to my feet fixing my dress as Niall stood up after me. I turn to face him.
"Thanks for having a little chat with me. I never get to talk to others about my life."
"How come?" He raises an eyebrow.
"They wouldn't understand. Besides, I have no real friends."
"Oh c'mon. You must at least have a couple of friends you talk to a lot."
"Nope. Jesse just talks with other celebrities management so we both could get publicity. Plus, he ran out my real friends when my fame started to strike. He thought that they'd be in the way of my job."
It was true. Jesse told them behind my back. What Jesse didn't know was, I actually overheard the meeting he had with my best friend, Joey along with others that I had supposedly said they were worthless to me and I used them so I could get more noticed. I was upset to hear my friends say hurtful words about me while in the meeting. I never talked or seen them after that day.
"Jeez, your management is harsh."
"You could say that again." I breathe out a laugh.