5. What do I want?
Harry took with me from the restaurant area and we walked along the street. I felt my stomach tingled and it was as if we met each other for the first time.
"So do you live in a hotel?"
He smiled and he nodded.
"Yes, but I'm looking for a house or an apartment."
I understood and I looked down at the ground. Harry seemed to be quite busy to think and we were silent for a long time, before he was right as it was stopped me.
"I just have to say this once."
I looked at him and I swallowed. He smiled and he looked straight into my eyes.
"I was happy with you and that was the only time in my life that I felt that I belonged somewhere."
I just wanted to cry. I wanted to cry because I hurt him, but also because he was so perfect and I had left him.
"Harry, I ..."
He took his hand over my mouth and he smiled rather sheepishly.
"Come on!" he whispered. "I know that you liked me and I'm sorry that I wasn't enough!"
I felt the tears coming. Harry smiled anyway and he leaned slightly forward to me. My whole body was in chaos when he kissed me. It was as if I couldn't resist him and all other thoughts vanished. I felt his arms around my waist and I felt him holding me tight. I took my arms around his neck and I didn't argue if it was the right thing to do.
"You're mine tonight!" Harry whispered hoarsely, and he ended the kiss. I wasn't in my right mind and I just stared at him. Harry smiled and he pulled tenderly his hands through my hair. "Tonight, you are with me..."
As soon as we got into Harry's hotel room, he tore off my clothes. I felt how he laid me on the bed and he laid himself quickly on top of me. He kissed me, he stroked me and I was like a madman. Harry seemed to take it easy but I knew what I wanted.
"Take me now!"
Harry smiled and he quickly parted my legs.
He penetrated. I felt how he filled me and there was no turning back. I took my arms tightly around his neck and I kissed him intensely. Harry slowly began to move on his body and I felt he took up all of my consciousness. I lifted my hips and I ended up in his pace. I heard he groaned and he quickly began to accelerate. He started pounding into me and I had nothing against it. I constantly wanted more and I wouldn't let him go. His lips were hot and our tongues had a competition between us. I didn't care who won, but he was with me.
Harry spun around and I ended up on top of him. I sat up and I quickly began to bring my body up and down. I rode him hard and I almost screamed with pleasure. Harry whimpered and he grabbed my waist and he forced me to calm me down.
"I want a little longer." he murmured, but I didn't care. I was so close to the end because I wanted to reach it. I almost sat down with a thud and quickly I rose up again, then I landed with his whole cock in me. Harry moaned and I saw at him that he was as excited as me.
"Shit just fuck me." I shouted. He smiled and he groaned aloud. I closed my eyes and I felt I reached the end. It ran over and my whole body exploded. I screamed and I didn't care if others in the hotel heard us. Harry smiled big and he forced me to keep riding him until he came and he came straight at me. I couldn't bother me that he shouldn't fill me with cum. I wanted everything that was Harry and I wanted all of him.
I was still sitting on top of him and I was breathless. That's when the guilt came and I didn't know what I would do.
"It's okay!" whispered Harry. "It just happened and it wasn't your fault."
"I can't just leave him."
"It's okay. I'm satisfied with just having you this night, just for myself."
It was the first time that I saw who Harry really was. He was humble, he was tender against me and he had empathy, which Niall really was missing. Why had I left Harry? How could I be so stupid that I thought Niall was much better?
"What do you want Harry?"
A question that was stupid, but I wanted to ask. He smiled and he let his hands caress my hips and my belly.
"I want you, but I know." he paused and he swallowed. "I don't want to make the same mistake as Niall did. I don't want to just show up and take over you. I want to earn your love and I want you to love me."
"But I have always loved you?"
Harry shook his head.
"No, you loved Niall and you thought you belonged with him. Maybe I'm wrong and maybe you're right, but I don't understand why your with him."
Okay, I was wondering the same thing for the moment.
"He was my first!" I whispered. "He took my heart and he hurt me."
Harry smiled and he blushed before he said the words.
"As you did to me?"
I just wanted to die. I saw at him that he wished everything was different. He caressed my stomach and up towards my breasts. He let his hands squeeze my two breasts, and he looked straight into my eyes.
"I wish I had met you before Niall. Then everything would have been so different."
I couldn't lie.
"I know!" I whispered. "I was thinking the same thing!"