I came home late at night and Niall slept. Direct I showered, put on clean clothes, but I didn't go to bed. Instead, I went down and I sat on the couch. I looked over our patio and I sat in my own thoughts. I had begun to suspect that I wasn't the right one for Niall. Maybe our love had blinded us and we had just thought that we were in love. He thought it was just me who he wanted, but deep down, he wanted something different. I sighed. Why wasn't life easier?
I fell asleep on the couch. I only had time to ponder for half an hour and then slid my eyes together and I fell asleep.
I felt a pair of lips on my cheek and Nialls arm around my body. I opened my eyes and I saw that the sun was about to go up. I saw hazy at him and it took me a few seconds before I woke up.
"You fell asleep on the couch?"
Niall looked suspicious.
I elected to lie.
"We have a lot at the job." I whispered hoarsely. "Two banks will go together and I have a job for two."
Niall smiled uncertainly and he sat next to me.
"I've spoken to Simon and he has given me permission."
This time I just stared at him. Niall laughed a little bit and he kissed my cheek quickly.
"I have ordered a vacation to Italy and we'll stay in a nice hotel. You said I didn't show that I loved you and I thought to change that. Simon gave you a month off!"
NO! "I want to be with Harry!" I screamed inside my head, but I said something different.
"But I can't just leave..."
Niall cut me off.
"No buts, I have solved all about your job and Simon said you need to get away from the bank for a while. It's alright and we are going to spend a whole month together, just you and me."
We would go on Monday, on Friday I just wanted to die. I came to my office, Simon came in and he felt that Niall was a good husband and I needed some freedom from the bank. I just wanted to scream. I didn't see Harry, but I felt his presence. He was there and I wanted to be with him, not with Niall. This got my conscience spinning around at high speed. I didn't know what to feel anymore and when Harry finally showed up, I didn't know what to say to him.
"You are going away for a month?"
I nodded. I looked down at the papers and I didn't meet his gaze. Harry smiled and to my great surprise, he seemed not to care.
"When you come home again I will live in the city and then maybe we can eat more food together?"
I just stared up at him. What did he mean? Harry sat down on the chair, on the other side of the desk and he smiled rather sheepishly at me.
"Thank you for the last time we met!"
I blushed and I felt the whole I just shook.
"Harry, it was ..."
He interrupted me.
"Don't say anything!" he whispered, and he looked at me with his lovely eyes. He smiled with his whole face, and he was sure of his cause. "Think through it all, in a month, how you want it and what you want. When you come home again, I'm here. I don't leave the bank in some time, and I set up, if you still want me."
"Harry, I'm married to Niall?"
"You were married to me too?"
I just wanted to scream out straight.
He smiled and he stood up.
"Just to let you know about it, I can tell you many things that would get you to leave him, but I'm saving the best for last."
He laughed and he walked towards the door.
"Have a good month with your so-called husband." then he left me. I sat there like a question mark and I just stared at the door. What did he mean?
I packed my suitcase, which eventually became two suitcases. I brought my dresses, shoes, makeup and jewelry. I packed with a worried mind. What was it that Harry knew? I tried myself to come up with an answer. Niall was having an affair? No, I knew he didn't have time for it and he was too busy with money and stocks. Perhaps he had some shady business? Still, I doubted that idea. Niall didn't dare to meet people with weapons, and he was a wimp when it came to violence. I found no explanation and I went through the past six months.
Niall kissed my neck and he stood behind me. I felt his arms around my waist and his body against my back. He peered down into my suitcase and he smiled big.
"You have a lot with you?"
I nodded and I blushed.
"A woman needs a lot?"
"I know!" Then he kissed my neck again. He released me and left the room. That's it? No sex or anything that said he loved me. I frowned. Perhaps the answer was that Niall had no feelings for me? Maybe he didn't want to marry me because I was just his thing?