PS; before you read, I want to mention that, I first thought to let her die but it's too sad. If I did that, it was with a meaning because it can show people how you can survive or not on a relation when you lost your own child. But now I revealed the 'thing' in the chapter but I hope you still want to read it.
I just say it now before you read, because I was thinking about it and I think if I did that plan I would get Megan who will be mad at me and Davina and maybe Jenny ? ;p And I used this 'miracle' thing because it 'worked with a baby too'.
Maybe a note: when I translate the chapter I listened to Tiffany Alvord - Let her go
It's maybe a beautiful song if you want to read with the chapter:
Engels - English :
A few days we got some news. It didn't help. Now it is really worse with Nina. We would lose her.... We had to say goodbye to her... I looked at my sweet daughter, exhausted, her eyes big to me. ‘Mommy will I die now?’ She asked insecure. ‘No sweety, your time won’t come now, daddy and I will make that sure.’ I said and stroked her head. Tears glided over my face. ‘Daddy, mommy’s crying why?’ Nina asked Niall who stood behind us.
‘Mommy is crying because she realizes how beautiful and how dear you are for us.’ Niall said. He was right. She was dear and beautiful to us. I felt his hand over my back. Nina cought and looked at me with her eyes. ‘When does uncle Louis, Harry, Zayn and Liam come?’ She asked curious.
‘They will come…’ Niall couldn’t even finish his sentence because someone knocked on the door. The boys came in. Nina wanted to sit on my lap so I put her on my lap with her head on my breasts so she could see the boys. ‘Uncles!’ She said with a weak voice. ‘Nina!’ She tried to be happy. ‘Can you sing moments for me? And daddy has to sing ‘the fault in our stars’ from Ed sheeran too!’ She ordered. They boys were sad but they didn't show it.
Lilly would be here normally but what if Nina would die when Lilly's here? It would be a trauma for the little Lilly. The boys sang and brought a little smile on the face of Nina. After Moments Nina sang softly 'the fault in our stars' and came closer to Nina. I heard him singing 'Antwerp' or 'Brussels' instead of 'Amsterdam'. At the end her little beautiful eyes closed. I held Nina closer to me. I cried. This couldn't be. Niall embraced me and our daughter like she was here. Everyone in the room cried. All the boys.
It became silent. For everyone. After a time, Niall claimed to say that she opened her eyes again. ‘She is. Nina open your mouth.’ Niall said and looked at Nina. ‘Daddy.’ Came out of her little mouth. Is it a miracle ? ‘Where am I?’ She said weak. ‘You’re with mommy and daddy and your uncles in hospital.’ Niall answered and went to the hallway to get a doctor.
She picked Nina up to check her up. Niall held me in his arms. ‘She’s alive.’ He said proud and a smile appeared on his face. ‘She’s alive.’ I said softly and I couldn't believe it. ‘Our daughter is alive.’ Niall said softly when I rested with my head on his chest.
I couldn't believe it. Is it real? Then the doctors came into the room with our little girl. They laid her softly in Nialls hands. Nina began to lean on Nialls chest. ‘It’s a miracle that she was dead and then alive but I think the bone marrow did a special reaction now and we’re trying to get her healthy again. She has to stay her at least a few days.’ The doctors said. ‘I don’t care because I want her to be better.’ I said.
The boys were away when they thought that Nina was dead. We will inform them that she isn't anymore. Niall would do that and I stayed at the hospital for our little fighter. The next day Niall came back.‘Everyone was surprised of our little fighter.’ He laughed. ‘They were so happy she’s alive again.’ He added to it. I smiled. Nina was still sleeping. This night they woke her up some tubes and a monitor. She was tired.
Niall gave me a kiss. ‘Is everything alright here?’ He asked. ‘Just some tubes added this night. It was hard for her but she slept after that. She’s our little fighter.’ I laughed. ‘That’s true. I love you. Thank you for giving me the best years of my life now.’ Niall said. I got a tear in my eyes. I felt his hands under my body. He picked me up. ‘That’s a long time ago that I did this.’ He said. I laughed and tried to not wake up Nina. I gave Niall a kiss.
‘So... they said it will be a big chance to get her healthy again so why can’t we marry within a few months?’ Niall proposed. ‘You’re sure about that? You’re not afraid of the fact to have a crazy wife?’ I laughed. He tried to held me higher and I laughed. He gave me little kisses. ‘Why not? We have fun, we love each other and we have amazing kids. I love you and I want to show it to everyone.’ Niall said. ‘Okay but you know marry someone is a promise to stay together until death tear us apart?’ I asked him mysterious.
‘I’ll keep that promise with pleasure.’ He said. He kissed me softly. I saw Nina turning to us. ‘Mommy? Daddy? Why does Daddy pick Mommy up?’ She asked softly. ‘Daddy wanted to show his power and tried to convince mommy something.’ I said. Nina laughed.
‘What mommy?’ Nina asked. I sighted. ‘Daddy wants to marry your mommy.’ Niall said. Nina her smile began to appear. ‘Really?’ She asked. Niall nodded. ‘Mommy has to marry daddy!’ Nina said proud. I laughed. ‘See your daughter said it too.’ Niall said. I gave up the fight because Lilly would say yes too.
Nederlands - Dutch:
Enkele dagen kregen we terug nieuws. Het heeft niet geholpen. Nu is het echt slecht aan het gaan met Nina. We zullen haar verliezen... We moeten afscheid van haar nemen... Ik kijk naar mijn lieve dochter, uitgeput, haar ogen groot naar mij. ‘Mommy will I die now?’ vroeg ze onzeker. ‘No sweety, your time won’t come now, daddy and I will make that sure.’ Zei ik en streelde haar hoofdje. Tranen gleden over mijn gezicht. ‘Daddy, mommy’s crying why?’ vroeg Nina aan Niall die achter ons stond.
‘Mommy is crying because she realizes how beautiful and how dear you are for us.’ Zei Niall. Hij had gelijk. Ze was dierbaar and mooi voor ons. Ik voelde zijn hand over mijn rug gaan. Nina hoestte en keek me aan met haar oogjes. ‘When does uncle Louis, Harry, Zayn and Liam come?’ vroeg ze nieuwsgierig.
‘They will come…’ Niall kon zijn zin niet afmaken want er werd op de deur geklopt. De jongens kwamen. Nina wou op mijn schoot liggen dus ik legde haar op mijn schoot en haar hoofd tegen mijn borst zodat ze de jongens kon zien. ‘Uncles!’ zei ze met haar zwakke stem. ‘Nina!’ probeerden ze vrolijk te zeggen. ‘Can you sing moments for me? And daddy has to sing ‘the fault in our stars’ from Ed sheeran too!’ beveelde ze. De jongens hadden verdriet maar lieten het niet zien.
Normaal zou Lilly hier ook zijn maar wat als Nina zou sterven wanneer Lilly erbij was? Het zou een trauma zijn voor de kleine Lilly. De jongens zongen en brachten een kleine glimlach op het gezicht van Nina. Na moments begon Niall zachtjes ‘the fault in our stars’ te zingen en kwam dichtbij Nina. Ik hoorde hem vanplaats Amsterdam , ‘Antwerp’ of ‘Brussels’ zeggen. Tegen het einde sloten haar mooie oogjes. Ik hield Nina dichtbij mij. Ik huilde. Dit kon niet. Niall omhelsde mij en onze dochter alsof ze nog onder ons was. Iedereen in de kamer huilde. Al de jongens.
Het werd stil. Voor iedereen. Na een tijdje beweerde Niall dat Nina haar ogen terug opendeed. ‘She is. Nina open your mouth.’ Zei Niall en keek naar Nina. ‘Daddy.’ Kwam er uit haar mond. Is het een mirakel ? ‘Where am I?’ zei ze zwak. ‘You’re with mommy and daddy and your uncles in hospital.’ Antwoorde Niall en ging direct een dokter halen.
Ze namen Nina even mee. Niall hield me in zijn armen. ‘She’s alive.’ Zei hij trots en een lach verscheen op zijn gezicht. ‘She’s alive.’ Zei ik zacht en kon het niet geloven. ‘Our daughter is alive.’ Zei Niall zacht terwijl ik met mijn hoofd op zijn borst rustte.
Ik kon het niet geloven. Is het echt zo? Toen kwamen de dokters met ons kleine meisje. Ze legden haar zachtjes in Nialls handen. Nina begon tegen Nialls borst te leunen. ‘It’s a miracle that she was dead and then alive but I think the bone marrow did a special reaction now and we’re trying to get her healthy again. She has to stay her at least a few days.’ Zei de dokter. ‘I don’t care because I want her to be better.’ Zei ik.
De jongens waren al weg toen ze dachten dat Nina was gestorven. We gingen ze nog wel op de hoogte brengen. Niall ging dat doen wat ik bleef bij onze vechter. De volgende dag kwam Niall terug. ‘Everyone was surprised of our little fighter.’ Lachte hij. ‘They were so happy she’s alive again.’ Voegde hij eraan toe. Ik glimlachte. Nina sliep nog steeds. Vorige nacht hebben ze haar wakker gemaakt voor enkele buisjes en een monitor. Ze was moe.
Niall gaf me een kus. ‘Is everything alright here?’ vroeg hij. ‘Just some tubes added this night. It was hard for her but she slept after that. She’s our little fighter.’ Lachte ik. ‘That’s true. I love you. Thank you for giving me the best years of my life now.’ Zei Niall. Ik kreeg een traan in mijn oog. Ik voelde zijn handen onder mijn lichaam. Hij pakte mij op. ‘That’s a long time ago that I did this.’ Zei hij. Ik lachte en probeerde Nina niet wakker te maken. Ik gaf Niall een kus.
‘So... they said it will be a big chance to get her healthy again so why can’t we marry within a few months?’ stelde Niall voor. ‘You’re sure about that? You’re not afraid of the fact to have a crazy wife?’ lachte ik. Hij probeerde me hoger op te pakken en ik lachte. Hij gaf met kusjes. ‘Why not? We have fun, we love each other and we have amazing kids. I love you and I want to show it to everyone.’ Zei Niall. ‘Okay but you know marry someone is a promise to stay together until death tear us apart?’ vroeg ik hem mysterieus.
‘I’ll keep that promise with pleasure.’ Zei hij. Hij kuste me zachtjes. Ik zag Nina naar ons draaien. ‘Mommy? Daddy? Why does Daddy pick Mommy up?’ vroeg ze zachtjes. ‘Daddy wanted to show his power and tried to convince mommy something.’ Zei ik. Nina lachte.
‘What mommy?’ vroeg Nina. Ik zuchte. ‘Daddy wants to marry your mommy.’ Zei Niall. Nina haar lach begon te verschijnen. ‘Really?’ vroeg ze. Niall knikte. ‘Mommy has to marry daddy!’ zei Nina trots. Ik lachte. ‘See your daughter said it too.’ Zei Niall. Ik gaf het gevecht op want Lilly zou ook ja zeggen.