Jimmy and I were just five minutes from his house. He had his arm wrapped around me and he was already kissing my neck. I'm not gonna lie, it felt really good, but all I could think about was when uncle Niall did that to me. I thought about how he kissed me and comforted me and held me close.
I had to stop thinking about him. I was with Jimmy and he was going to take my virginity and that would be it. It would be done.
We got to Jimmy's house and he took me straight up to his room.
"Babe, do you want something?" Jimmy said with a wide smirk on his face.
"Ummm I-". Right then my phone started ringing in my back pocket. It was my dad.
"Just let it go to voice mail" Jimmy whispered seductively in my ear. I did. Jimmy kissed my lips and again I felt as if uncle Niall were kissing me.
My phone rang again. It was uncle Niall. I immediately let it go to voice mail. My phone kept going off and it was driving me crazy.
"I can't do this right now" I said looking at my lap. I didn't even let Jimmy respond and just ran out of his house.
I walked all the way home. It was almost 10 o'clock and my feet were aching. As I walked through the front door I saw Eddie, Daddy, and uncle Niall sitting on the couch watching The Godfather part one. What was it with men and that movie?
"Hey sweetheart. How was Allie's?" my dad asked as I walked through the front door.
"It was fine" I answered harshly and quickly ran upstairs. I slammed the door to my room shut really hard and knew that my dad heard it.
I took a bath, brushed my hair and teeth, and went to bed thinking about uncle Niall.
I woke up to the sound of a knock on my door. I looked at the time. Two in the morning. I got up and opened my door. To my surprise, it was uncle Niall. He looked so good in blue boxers and a white t-shirt.
"What are you doing here? It's two a.m." I whispered.
"Can I come in?" he asked. I looked at him with anger.
"No." I said firmly.
"Please Emma" he pleaded. I couldn't resist. I parted so he could come in.
"Emma, please tell me you didn't do anything with him."
"You know with who."
"Oh, with Jimmy?"
"Yes, with Jimmy."
"That's none of your business. Now please leave my room."
"Emma you can't stay mad at me forever."
"You know I really love you. You're absolutely perfect. But this is wrong and you know that. I wish I could be with you forever. I wish you could be mine, but the world doesn't work like that. I would love to kiss you everyday and to have you by my side. There's so many things I want and you're at the top of that list. But you're also the one thing I can't have."
I stared at Niall with tears streaming down my face.
"Why her? Why did you ask her to marry you?"
He looked into my eyes and said, "because I can't have you" and walked out of the room. I cried myself to sleep that night.