The boys are out today at a couple of meetings for the tour. I am so proud of them yet devastated that they will be leaving for a long time. I just hope nothing changes.
They are leaving in a couple of days and I can't bare the the thought of it.
One the has been bothering me though, it's ten months and I know that texting and video calling won't due mine and Luke's relationship justice. I know I will be a distraction and I will end up ruining his career if he has to worry about me for ten months and I can't let that happen.
I don't want the paps following us around and I dont think I will be able to get used to this business. I need my privacy.
I don't know if we can stay together or not. I am in love with Luke. And it does pain me to even think about breaking up with him but I kind of think that it is the right thing to do under these circumstances.
It won't be a break up though. More of a pause. Right when he comes back hopefully he will allow me to jump back into his arms.
I want to tell him tomorrow. The day before he leaves but I want Liz's input first so she is coming over soon to talk about it with me.
The doorbell rings and I rush to the door opening it for Liz. She stands there looking a bit upset but I know exactly why.
"Two days." She says as she runs into my arms.
"I know. I don't think I can do this." I say mumbling.
"Same. I need Ashton and no matter what he isn't dumping me for some slut bag he finds on tour because I will make sure no fans come near my boo!" She says and I giggle. I am happy she won't be breaking up with Ashton. I hope the best for the two.
"I think Luke and I should put our relationship on pause for the time being while he is on tour." I say as a tear falls down my cheek.
"No! Why?" She says.
"Don't get me wrong. I do love him, it's just I don't want to be a distraction and I don't want to ruin his career. I love him to much to ruin his big break." I say
"You won't ruin anything. He wants you apart of it." She says looking disappointed.
"I will be. But as a close friend. After the tour, if he still wants to be with me, we will get back together." I say and she weakly smiles back and nods.
"When are you going to tell him?" She asks.
"Tomorrow." I say.
She hugs me as tears fall down my cheeks. I can't help it. I am going to break up with the one guy I thought I will have forever.
"He loves you and always will. You guys are meant to be so don't worry" she says and I nod into her neck.
The front door bursts open with my very happy mother walking through. This surprises me because she usually walks through the door tired because of a hard day at work and she usually comes home late at night.
She looks at Liz and I and smiles.
"Good afternoon my lovely daughter! Hello, beautiful Liz!" My mom says and we both giggle with confusion.
"Hey Mama!" Liz says. She calls my mom, "mama" because she is like a mother figure to her.
"Guess what?" My mother says a bit too perkily.
"What." I say blankly.
"I got a promotion to head doctor!" My mother says.
Liz and I both scream and hug my mother to congratulate her.
"But there is a catch." My mothers voice trails off.
I take a step back and raise my eyebrows.
"What is it?" I ask cautiously.
"We have to move." She says.
"Oh. Just houses right?" Liz says with her smile fading away.
"No. Countries. Actually continents. We have to move to Africa." My mom says.
My mouth drops. No way am I leaving my life behind to move to Africa! I am not leaving my best friend and education behind.
"No. I-I..." I begin but I have no words to explain how upset I am.
"Mama you can't do this to me. Rina is the only thing I have to hold on too. She is my other half my wing woman. You can't move away from me. You can't take my best friend!" She cries into her hands.
"I'm sorry girls. I have no choice. It's not like Rina can live here alone." My mom says with a tear rolling down her cheek.
"I am almost 18! I so can!" I say.
"I will not allow it. We are moving and that's the end of the discussion. We are leaving in 2 weeks." My mom says and leaves the room.
I cry into Lizs shoulder once again. I don't know why God hates me so much.
"I can't leave you!" I tell Liz.
"You can move in with me and my family!" Liz says with amusement in her eyes.
I laugh at the idea. "Like your parents want me."
"They will be home from their trip by next week. Ruffly one day before you leave. I can convince them. I promise." She says.
"If you do. I will move in." I say with a giggle. "It's a plan! And I guess I have two things to tell Luke." Then my giggle turns into a frown