I'm so messed up right now nothing makes sense. I really want to forgive myself about what I did to Bell but I just can't. Something tells me that I'm a horrible boyfriend and something else tells me that she'll never forgive me. I hope she's doing well and isn't in any trouble.
Right as I was in bed drifting off into a deep sleep my phone begins to ring. My phone rings and I keep ignoring it finally until I notice who's it from.
"Hey mate I need you to get to the hospital" said Harry
"What's going on? who's hurt?
"It's Bell Liam" Harry says quietly
"What happened mate?" I ask him while getting up to put on some pants and a shirt.
"I was calling Bell but she didn't answer and so I went to stop at her house. I found her in the bathroom laying in the tub and her wrists. They looked so bad and the cuts are deep."
"I'm coming right now. Keep an eye on her and I'll be there as soon as I can."
"Alright mate stay calm and no rushing."
Soon after Harry called I knew that it was time to go be with my girl. I can't stand the thought of Bell cutting. I can't believe that she started cutting. Was it because of me?
Thoughts kept racing threw my mind as I started up the car. Thinking about my girl was the only thing that was in my head. So many questions were going in and out of my mind.
There's so much I want to ask Bell but so much I have to wait to find out. It's hard seeing her in this state. Out of all people I wish it was me. Me who should be laying in that hospital bed. Me who cut myself.
As I was waiting for Liam to get here guilt took over me. I was really angry that someone so beautiful would hurt themselves. I wish she would've told me and I could've kept her from cutting. I should've paid attention and this wouldn't of happened.
As they were taking Bell in the back I started crying and didn't know what to do. I cannot believe that something bad is happening to her right now.
I hope she's ok. As the minutes got longer and what seemed like hours the doctor finally came out and Liam, the guys, Jesy, and the girls showed up on time.
I got up nervously waiting for the doctor to speak.
"Are you guys here for Ms. Hunter?" says the doctor
"Yes! I'm her friend and this is her boyfriend and friends behind me."
"Ok good! Ms. Hunter did lose a lot of blood but she should be ok. Right now she's hooked up to lots of machines and she still needs oxygen for her lungs so take it easy on her"
"Ok thanks doc" I said.
We started to walk towards her door and I become scared. I'm so scared to see her. Quickly Liam patted my shoulder and nodded. "Everything will be ok" he mouthed to me.
It's so hard seeing my bestfriend in this state. I just can't believe that she's back cutting. It kills me because she promised not to cut anymore. I really hope that she gets better.
That phone call was really awaking to me. As I was thinking I feel someone hug me. I looked up and seen that I was crying and that Jade was hugging me.
The doctor quickly came and talked to us and soon Bell's mum and dad will be here! We get to see Bell and I'm sad yet happy.