14. Chapter fourteen - Love, anger management and losing you
I was scared of hitting back at anybody as I had done to that fan.I never got to apologise but I fell so bad. It's not like me to be like this. I decided to take up a sport to clear my head a bit the sport you ask boxing. I know I have learned it before but that was a while ago.
Boxing was a sport that I could just spend time with myself and clear my head.I hope the other guys find help.They have (except niall) have been going downhill fast so its hard to say if they will be able to recover or they might do something they will regret.
The fans love them and really do care about them as if they where family which the are and me ,Bethany, Niall,Danielle and Perrie want ot make sure we will have people to come home to wether thats a friend,boyfriend ,Fiance or husband.We just want everybody to be happy.
I hate saying this but I'm losing my Fiance Zayn.I want to help him but he always says he is fine and if I try and bring it up again he tells me to leave it.I don't think he realises how much we care we all do.We have to be hopeful.Wish for the best do anything to make sure Louis and Zayn make it out alive,
Sitting here is boring espically when I could be with Bethany.I feel like it's to early to ask her yet I have to wait till the moments right.I just hope I don't get rejected.
I heard that Liam was getting better. He texted me himself.I was extremely happy for his speedy recovery but we all need to hope for Zayn and Louis who havent been the best. I don't knoq them very well but they are Liam's friends and if anything where to happen to them it would be pretty upsetting.Losing a friend is upsetting but possibly losing even more of them would be even worse and hard on the other guys.