30. The truth
I was angry. I went back and forth across the floor, but Niall sat quietly down on the sofa.
"YOU can't just show up and think I will go with you? I have a husband and I have a life. I got me a name?"
Niall smiled and he didn't care.
"You don't love Harry, you love me?"
I snorted and I looked at him coldly.
"What's love got to do with it? You did your choice years ago and I've made my choice."
Niall stood up and he came over to me.
"Please, Maggie, admit it!"
I shook my head.
"I'm happy and I'm Maggie Styles."
Niall took my face between his hands and I could feel his scents coming to my nose.
"But you want to be Maggie Horan?"
I just wanted to cry. Yes, I wanted to be Maggie Horan, I wanted to be Mrs. Horan so much that I just wanted to scream. But I also knew that I had chosen Harry. I could have said no in the church and I could have chosen to wait for Niall, but now I was standing there and I had made my choice.
"Niall, I have a life!" I whispered. I looked into his eyes and he realized that I meant every words. He sighed a little bit but he didn't drop me.
"What's it that's so great about Harry?"
I smiled and I shook.
"I trust him and he loves me infinitely. His family treats me like their daughter and he gives me what I want."
Niall dropped my face, but he remained standing in front of me.
"I can give you what you want?"
I felt the tears coming.
"Niall, you broke my heart several times. You stomped on me and I'm hurt."
"I'm sorry but I couldn't do anything else?"
"Well you could have chosen me, you could have said that you chose me?"
Niall took my hands and he held them tenderly in his hands.
"Yes, I have often regretted that I didn't stand up for you and I have regretted that I disappeared from you, but I was afraid."
Niall nodded and he looked into my eyes.
"I was afraid of losing everything, even if I got it all."
I didn't understand. He took a deep breath.
"I was so close to choose you and move to you for good, but I didn't know if it would hold. I was afraid that you would get tired of me, when I was with you all the time."
"Are you serious?"
He nodded, and he looked down at the floor.
"I was afraid you would look down on me when I had no money and when nobody in the family wanted to see me. I was afraid you would be like them."
I took my hands around his shoulders and I gave him a hug. Niall raised his arms and he took them softly around my body.
"I had given you it all." I whispered and I tried not to sob. "I had done everything for you, only you had chosen me."
Niall was crying too.
"But I did wrong?"
I nodded and I let him go from the hug.
"Yes, you made the wrong choice."
Niall leaned over and his lips sought out mine. He kissed me gently and I couldn't resist. I responded the kiss, and I felt that his arms slid around my body again. I felt his tongue and I felt his demanding licks. My whole body tingled and my legs were weak. Again it was as though I was young, as if he were young and we had just met, but we had more experience.
The phone rang and I quickly ended the kiss. I was red in the face and quickly released Niall me. I went over to the telephone and picked up the receiver.
"Hey it's me!"
I swallowed and I heard Harry's wonderful voice. I stood with my back to Niall and I felt like an unfaithful wife.
"Hello, Darling!" I got up and Harry heard directly that my voice was thick.
"Don't tell me that you miss me already?"
He laughed a little bit.
"Don't cry, I'll be home again? I would just say that I have arrived and that everything is okay. How are things at home?"
I swallowed and I was shaking all over.
"It's okay. I'm done with all the things and I'm taking it easy." ("with Niall and I are about to make a big mistake!")
"That's great!" he said happily. "I don't call again today, but I might have time tomorrow, you don't need to sit at home and wait, but I might be calling?"
I smiled and I nodded.
"Yes, Darling!" ("If I'm not with Niall or choose to leave you!")