I sat next to Harry and I smiled. Niall was everywhere. I saw him talking to different people, I saw him smile at us and I saw him make a toast with his glass, when any guest had made a speech. I was almost angry that he was at my wedding and I told myself that I had no feelings for him.
"We'll dance the wedding waltz!" Harry whispered to me and he smiled with his whole face. I nodded and I stood up. I went with him to the dance floor and I felt his hand around my waist. I took my hand in his hand, and the second hand I laid across his shoulders. I saw all the time in Harry's eyes, just to not look at Niall, and I smiled. We had practiced that so many times before and we knew how we would take the steps.
"I love you!" Harry whispered tenderly. I smiled and I looked into his gorgeous eyes.
"I love you!"
He laughed and he nodded.
"Yes, you can't dare to love someone else."
It was a cut in my heart. "can't dare to love someone else ....?" I felt the words drilled into me and I felt my stomach began to ache. Did I loved Harry or not? Yes, I loved Harry?
The car drove up and we stood so everyone could see us. We smiled, we waved and I puffed out. I didn't see Niall. I just saw a bunch of unimportant faces and I could take a breather. Some wanted to capture by moment in a photo with their camera and some just wanted to hug us, but finally we jumped into the car and I puffed out.
"Finally!" murmured Harry and he kissed me, long before he had closed the door. I laughed and I smiled at him.
Harry was quick to get my clothes off. We had chosen a luxury hotel room on the top floor and we had everything we needed. I giggled and I lay down on the bed. He stripped naked and I looked at his naked skin. This was the man I would live with. I looked at Harry and I loved him. Harry came over to the bed and he threw himself over me. He lay down on top of me and our lips met. I immediately felt a difference. Harry's lips were soft and gorgeous, but Nialls lips were more demanding and more filled with passion. I had to get angry at myself. I couldn't think about Niall, not now that I had the wedding night with my husband.
Harry got me down on all fours and he put himself behind my butt. He penetrate and I felt how he started pushing all the way in. I moaned and I bent down and hid my face against the pillow. I felt how he began working with the body and he held my hips in a firm grip. I tried to be there, but still slid my thoughts over at Niall. I saw before me his naked, pale body. I saw before me the way he smiled at me, the way his blue eyes twinkled when I told him something, and I still remembered his kisses. Niall had loved to just sit and hold me. Many times we had had sex and then we had only been laying there and talked. I had kept my arms around his body and I had felt safe.
Harry let his hand begin to caress me and I ended up where I used to end up. I moaned and I started to bring my body back and forth in his pace. I felt how he filled me and he moaned loudly. I felt how my body bounced against Harry and I saw before me how Niall kissed me. Damn I was stupid, I was an idiot. I didn't want to see Nialls face. I didn't want to feel his body against mine and I didn't want to kiss him. Okay maybe a little kiss and it would have been wonderful to let my finger slide across his chest, but not otherwise! Or I wanted to feel him against me and I wanted to hear him say my name. Nialls wonderful voice, his Irish voice that was soft as velvet.
I felt how Harry came. He filled me and he moaned loudly. I realized I had missed it all. He had had sex with something but not with me. He shook and he filled me. I played theater and I played as if I had come.
"But I didn't notice it?" Harry said hoarsely. I smiled and I blush.
"Well, I got an orgasm ....!"
Harry fell asleep quickly. I put on a robe and I went out on the balcony. It was night and I heard only few cars drove away down the street. I saw the stars in the sky and I saw all the dark houses. It felt like I should be happy, but I was anything but happy. It was Nialls fault that everything just went wrong!
"Good morning, Darling!"
I felt Harry's lips on my breasts and he got them to react. I smiled and I opened my eyes. He kissed my skin and I felt him slid down over my stomach. I took my hands over his head and he parted my legs. I closed my eyes again when he began to take care for my most sensitive part. I felt his tongue, his lips, and I began to shake all over. I held my hands tightly over Harry's head, and I followed in his movements. The tongue was playing with my clit and before me I saw Nialls face. He could take me by storm and he also got my body shaking. I felt two fingers penetrated and they found my G-spot. Nialls fingers, the wonderful Irish fingers that always slid in perfectly. I moaned and I groaned. I lifted my hips against Nialls face and I whimpered high. It was as if time stood still, and he knew what I wanted.
"Harder ..." I whimpered. I felt the lips encircled my clit and I could feel his mouth sucking on it. I moaned and I squeezed almost down Nialls face harder against me, I wanted him, I wanted to feel his body against mine, but at the same time he knew what he would do.
I felt my whole body ran over and I could feel the orgasm quickly took over my body.
"Niall please!" I screamed and I felt myself shaken by the whole incident. I was shaking and I pushed his face towards me. When I calmed down, I released his hair and I was breathing rapidly.
"Whose name did you say before?"
I was startled and I looked down at Harry's face.
"You said a name, but you didn't say my name?"
I felt like an idiot. Had I cried Nialls name? I wasn't sure about it, but at the same time, I knew it could happen.
"No, I said no name. You must have heard wrong?"
Harry smiled and he nodded.
"Okay?" he sat up and he laughed a little bit. "Now you are at least mine and who cares?"
I nodded and I blushed. I knew that I had thought he was Niall, but I wasn't sure I had said Nialls name and why did I see Niall?