I sat there staring at the wall.
How could i have not seen that before.
He has changed like so much.
Like the only I saw that was the same was the eyes, but really he looked nothing--and I mean nothing-- like he use too.
I just don't know what to think at this point.
To be honest my hate for Justin or Jason whatever, has faded.
Justin was probably the nicest guy I have ever met.
He was the first guy I have ever fell in love with.
I'm still in love with that Justin I new in 2009.
But the problem is I finally know where he went, and what he has been doing. It hurts to know that it's been horrible things and not good things.
Why would he ruin his perfectly good life.
Why would he leave me?
I asked myself the day after he left why would he leave me.
Was it because I was to ugly?
Not as good as the other girls?
Was I too good for him?
Hell no but in his opinion it was a option.
It was all sudden and all at once.
February 15 , 2010
I skipped down the hallway, making my way up to the boy with white jeans that sagged lowly off so his black boxers where visual.
I rolled my eyes, and chuckled.
"Hey" I giggled tapping his shoulder.
He turned around and smiled widely.
"Sup cutie" he winked.
I kissed his cheek.
"Last night was so much fun" I giggled.
He closer his locker and I leaned on it and he stood in front of me smirking.
"So what was your favorite part, the food, the talking, the star watching, or the sexy make out session on your parents couch" he giggled wiggling his eyebrows.
"I don't know you tell me" I smirked pulling his collar if his shirt toward me.
I kissed his lips gently and he kissed back instantly. As his tongue glided across my bottom lip. I opened my mouth for full entrance.
"Break it up love birds" a teacher yelled at us.
We broke apart, and giggled embarrassed.
"You make me feel like such a bad girl oh my gosh" I sighed blushing.
"You love it " he whispered.
"What if I say I don't hmm?" I raised my eyebrow.
He brought his hand up to my butt and squeezed it.
I gasped, and giggled.
"You wanna say you don't love it now" he chuckled.
Nope. Not at all.
I shook my head pushing him off of me playfully.
"We have class in like 1 minute and it's like all the way across the school.
I saw some girls death staring me, and I felt like there were planing on killing me soon.
"Let's go then!" he grabbed my hand and jerked me down the hallway as we ran down the hallways. Hand and Hand.
I sat in my bed that night thinking of the times we had together and how lucky I was to be with him.
Until I heard the rocks hitting my window.
I looked at the time it read 11:21pm.
I furrowed my eyebrows.
It might me Justin.
I opened my window and put my head out and looked down.
I saw Justin looking up at me.
I smiled instantly.
"What are you doing here it's almost midnight we have school jay" I whispered.
"I uh need to talk to you" he said.
That night he told me he was leaving Stratford,and he said he would probably come back.
He also told me he loved me.
I told him I loved him too.
He kissed me that night before he claimed out my window, and walked back to his house.
I watch as he walked away from my house his head was down looking at his feet.
I cried a lot that night.
Probably more than I have cried in my life.
When you lose someone you love, you can't forget the memories you guys held or the important things you told.
Justin and I had the best of all.
For some reason I don't see him as Jason as Justin.
Justin had cute flippy hair.
Jason has styled up hair in a quiff.
Justin had only had 1 tattoo.
Jason had millions.
Justin would never hurt anyone for no reason.
Jason doesn't care about a damn person, and would kill anyone in a heart beat.
But there one.
They are the same person.
So far I didn't like this new Justin.
Why did he even capture me for in the teal place.
I threw the last of my beer in the trash as I threw the bottle in the trash.
"Justin" I heard a soft delightful voice say.
I turn my head and she her standing the door way with cute nightwear on.
I just stared at her, looking at her beautiful body.
"Why did you take me..." She whispered.
" That's all I ask" She said a little louder.
I cleared my throat.
" I uh kinda missed you, I'll be honest I have been watching you around lately.
After a night I went out to uh-well kill, I saw you waking with another man" I explained.
I remembered how beautiful she looked in her sparkly red dress.
"I followed you guys and I saw you were having a date with him" I scratched my neck awkwardly.
"Oh did he like that meatball to his forehead?" I chuckled.
"No way that was you?"She asked.
I shook my head smirking.
"Oh my gosh" she giggled.
I smiled widely.
"I would have never thought that was you,I thought it was a accident." She giggled.
"Yeah" I scratched my neck.
"Uh well We better getting to sleep her in like 2 or 3 hours.
"Why did you ask me to go out and learn about me tonight, if you already know me?" she asked.
" I didn't want you to know I was uh "Justin" and that I have changed but I just kinda snapped in the Moment earlier" I Said.
"Would you have eventually told me?" She asked.
"Eventually, but I guess I don't need to worry now"I said.
" I'm glad you told me now than later"She said.
"Sooner the better" She said.
I smiled back.
"Don't think you are off the hook,I still hate you" She said.
"You can't hate me I'm Justin" I smirked.
"Oh because I thought you where Jason " she left the room and ran up the stairs.
I shook my head chuckling.
November 20, 2009
"Seriously Justin stopp" She hit my arm playfully.
"Boooo this movie is so scaryyyyy" I playfully whispered.
"Don't scare me anymore or I'll per my pants" she cuddled closer to my chest.
"Oh come on this movie isn't even that bad."I laughed.
"Yes it is I hate jump scared dude." She giggled.
I kissed her temple.
"Babe you safe with me." I smiled.
She smiled up at me with her eyes sparkling.
"Are you sure" She whispered.
"Mhm"I hummed coming closer to her.
"Are you sure sure" she raised her eyebrows.
"No" I said playfully.
"I hate you" she pouted.
"Fuck that" I grabbed her and kissed her surprising her.
She smiled against my lips.
"Ok maybe I don't hate you." She giggled.
I smirked and pulled her closer to my chest.
I sighed and put my head in my hands.
I hope it only goes up from here.
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