17. The Story
On our way home Cameron made small chat but I couldn’t reply. I want to tell him but I just can't but it will be best if I just tell him.
Cameron parked into his driveway, I got out and headed straight to the front door and waited for Cameron to come and open the door. Cameron came to open the front door a few minutes later but after he placed all the bags on the kitchen counter whilst I stood in the hallway, he came back and grabbed my hand taking me to his bedroom. After we got to his bedroom I sat straight on his bed whilst he sat next to me.
C: Dee babe what’s going on and I want you to tell me
I stayed quiet but Cameron didn’t give up on constantly asking me what’s wrong. After 5 minutes of me staying quiet I decided it would be best to tell him so I did
D: It all started in Grade 4. I was whipped with skipping ropes and called fat by Amy and her gang, the teachers didn't do anything. Honestly, they would stand around, watch me get beaten up and laugh and not bother stopping her.
In Grade 5, I was moved schools. All was fine and dandy till Grade 7 rolled around and I had gained weight over the summer, I had no friends and I didn't have name brand clothes like all the other kids. They called me whale and chubby bunny. I know, they don't sound that bad now but try being 12 years old, shortest and thickest girl, Year-end of grade 7 I had told a friend my plans to stab myself that night. She immediately told a school counsellor who called my mom. At first I felt hatred towards her for telling but now I don't.
In Grade 9 things got worse, I moved across the country, I had started using Facebook more frequently and people were making fake accounts like "Henry Hippo," saying that I should kill myself and that I don't belong on this earth and that no be likes me and I'm better off for myself and everyone else, 6 feet under. I started self-harming then. That year I moved 3 times. For the five months I lived with my grandmother I felt peace till I went back, no one in my family know about this I only told Alisha because I trust her with my whole life and I can’t tell Alia because I know she will tell everyone.
After I finished telling Cameron everything I was sobbing again Cameron pulled me into his chest and let me cry until I was quiet again
C: Baby I’m so sorry I promise you I will never let anything happen to you from now on.
I looked up and connected my lips with Cameron’s that was until he pulled away
C: I love you Dee
D: I love you too Baby