6. Keep it Hidden
We were all lying on the sofa when Fearne walked out of the room, she just went and sat on Niall's lap not saying a word. Niall told us what had happened.
Some 'fans' they are then, I hate seeing Fearne like this, she's so empty...
Fearne kept it hidden for nearly a week without anybody noticing, she mostly spent her time going to bed earlier than usual.
More lines appeared further up her arm and more tears fell, she couldn't handle the hate. It wouldn't stop.
We had arrived in Malan, Italy and we were on our way to the hotel.
Once we got there Paul spoke to us,"Now we have 3 rooms so choose who you will be with now."
"I'm in a room with Zayn!" Liam shouted.
"Harry's in a room with me!" Louis said.
"I guess you're with me," Niall smirked and I winked.
We all ran up trying to get the best room. Niall and I ran into the biggest room.
"Claim our room!" I called out to the boys who all pouted.
"That's not fair!" Zayn argued.
"Well we got it first so move along bad boii!" I winked.
Niall jumped on the bed and pulled me on top of him, "We have to get ready." I smirked and got off him.
He pouted,"You're such a tease,"
He grabbed my hand and tried to pull me back down, "No Niall," I laughed.
"Awww.." he sighed and looked at the ground.
"Buffet!!!!" I heard Louis thumping down the corridor.
"We have to get changed Niall."
"Fine." He gave up.
As I took off my shirt and put on this, Niall stared at me with his eyes wide. "What?"
"We'll talk about this after dinner." He sounded upset and with that he left the room.
I walked out of the suite and down the hall and waited on the lift and when i got down I walked over and piled up my plate at the buffet, I was starving.
I went over and sat beside Liam because i felt like Niall didn't want me there. He was laughing with Harry but i saw him glance sadly a few times. It really annoyed me and something at the back of my head was telling me to watch out. But what?
After dinner I went up in the lift and into my room. Niall was already there waiting for me.
"Fearne..." He started but i cut him off.
"What did i do Niall?" I snapped.
"Show me your arm." He sighed.
"What?!" My eyes widened in horror.
"Fearne, please. I know what i saw." Oh nononono this cant be happening.
"What do you mean?" I stuttered.
"Show me your arms!"
I was starting to get scared. There was no way of hiding this so i just held out my arms. He rolled up my sleeves. "Why did you c-cut?" I heard him gasp.
I squeezed my eyes shut, refusing to look at his hurt,pained face. "Hate." I whispered.
"Because I love you! Okay?! And you don't love me back, don't you see how worthless i am, your fans are right! I don't deserve you! I'm not good enough..."
He just pulled me into a hug and lulled me into sleep.
Sorry if there are too many P.O.V's I can't write one for too long without changing.
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