I can’t remember much of it. Just pain. Total and unrelinquishing pain. I knew it would never end and that I would never leave me. It had been four years since the bombs were sent and my father had turned forty-three. Chris and I had a little girl called Luca who had just turned four. She had Chris’s hair and my hazel eyes. She was perfect. I stood by Chris as he was lowered into the ground. Valentine and Cecily were hugging each other. Vanessa had died three years earlier and now my father had died. He had died of lung cancer so Barney had told us. He and Jane had gotten married and had two children of their own. Willa and Conrilia. I was now Queen. Ethelburgesa’s shields had withstood the blast, but some of the radiation had leaked in. I felt tears sting my eyes as I knew I would never see my father smile again. He would never call me his little girl even though I was twenty six and had my own family.
‘It will be okay.’
‘I know. Did it hurt when your father died?’ He hugged me as I cried.
‘It hurt badly. But I stayed strong for you. At least your father is in a better place with Vanessa.’ I nodded. I just let my tears flow as Chris hugged me.
Valentine hugged me and Cecily and Chris. We were all each other had. Luca was stood in the middle completely confused to what was going on. She was only four. Cecily and Valentine spent time looking after her as Chris and I fought with the idiots called parliament about laws and my daughters future, the amount of power I could have and should I disband them.
Valentine in the end married Olivia Winchester. I went to school with her father and mother. Cecily is still not married. I had the law changed about the marriage. Chris and I are still together. He is now the Prince of Ethelburgesa as I became queen. It was a small coronation as I was still torn up over my father. I think it was heartbreak that killed him. Luca is a very headstrong girl who is a bit like me. She won’t give up on her dreams just to please me.
I never saw Phoenix or Emily again. I guess they went off and married who they desired and if the didn’t I will dream up a great place for them to live, the perfect man and the lifestyle they deserve. Because to be truthful they do. They put up with my constant troubles and worries when I was a whiney chienne or a spoilt brat. They put up with the fact that I was a princess. I can’t dream for them, but I will dream about them. I will dream that they got all they need. Oh, sweet Crowley’s butt cheek I forgot that I went to Phoenix’s wedding. Doh. It’s okay. Phoenix married George so she lost a sassy chienne (me) and gained a sassy chienne (George). Emily married Leo which surprised me.
I got out of the car and walked up the school drive. It was Lucas last day of school and she had always been picked up Mark or someone else. Everyone knew who she was but never believed her. She had just turned eleven recently and so I decided to surprise her. Chris stood behind me the whole time. I heard the bell go and ignored all the stares I got. You don’t see the Queen standing in the school car park with the mother mothers and fathers. Luca walked out with her class. She was at the back with Clarise her best friend. She was looking for the long white car with black windows that always picked her up. Her eyes lit up when she saw me. Chris poked me.
‘Stop it Two. I can still replace you.’ I whispered.
‘With who? Jacko?’ I punched his arm. Chris was still hell bent on training me to protect myself and now Luca. She skipped over to me.
‘You came!’ She said.
‘Hey, I always try and make your big moments. I do send Chris sometimes, though. Sorry,’ she hugged Chris. I took Chris’s hand as we walked back towards the limo with her chatting animatedly beside me. George and Phoenix's child danced over to us.
‘Auntie Taylor!’ She said launching herself into my arms. She was in reception and so still very small. Phoenix bounced over.
‘I have not seen you in ages ma chere.’ She said hugging me too. ‘Damn we need to have coffee sometime soon with Emily.’
‘At my place?’ I said. She nodded.
‘I love your place. Nine tomorrow morning be there or I will kill you.’
‘You wouldn’t really kill mummy. I think Daddy would get there first.’ Luca said from beside me.
‘What?’ Phoenix asked.
‘I still blame Daddy when things go wrong.’ Chris looked at me. ‘Your offspring your problem.’ I said.
‘Hey, she is your daughter too!’
‘So? I teach her things.’ I said. Chris narrowed his eyes.
‘How to eat, speak and walk like a princess.’ I said with a smile.
‘Two, don’t you dare even go there.’ I sang. With a bright smile. He gently slapped the back of my head. ‘Love you too.’
And so this concludes my story of my life and how screwed up it was. So whenever something goes wrong just remember that somebody loves you. Whatever happens. Chris and I fight. A lot. I even call him Two to annoy him. Luca finds it too funny when we fight. It is normally over the stupid things. If he starts say “I should have woken up earlier” I reply with “Hitler should not have invaded Poland.” That does annoy him. It is his face when he can’t think quick enough it screws up and he narrows his eyes at me. Thankfully for him Luca did not inherit my sass. It skips generations.’ *Wink Wink* No she just gives him endless grief and he puts up with it.
Luca has taken the whole mother is a Queen business very well. She got into Logan University which is the best in the world. Chris and I were so proud. She has made amazing friends and even has a boyfriend, but she does not know that I know that. He is called Edmund Miles and very bright. He thinks the world of her, but Chris and I will sit him down and give him a very grueling test and long talk about dating Luca. I need to know my baby is safe and won't have such a weird life as I did.
My last sentence in this book will be at the bottom. Why this sentence? It makes me feel better knowing that I can always overcome the darkness in my life. So it is a quotation from an old book written hundreds of years ago The bible.
"The light shines in the darkness and the darkness has not overcome it -John 1:5"