29. Not A Bad Thing (Clare & Jeff)
"Now how about I be the last voice you hear tonight, and every other night for the rest of the nights that there are. And every morning I just wanna see you starin' back at me cause I know that's a good place to start."
* Clare's P.O.V. *
I laid here in bed humming Next To You resting both my mind and my body more specifically my ankle. I've been out of the ring for about 4 months ever since AJ broke my ankle. It's been healing slower than it should. And to top it all off a week after being home I found out I'm pregnant. With Jeff's baby. I haven't told him because I've been scared of his reaction. But I'm scared in general. I hate myself for lying to him and hiding this pregnancy from him but I must admit it was easy. He hasn't been home in 3 months so he hasn't seen anything below my chest when we video chat. But I'm having this strong feeling he's gonna time take time off to take care of me and soon I'll be even bigger. He's not stupid when he finds out I'm pregnant he's gonna be mad at me and he's gonna leave me. I don't know if I can be a single mother. I don't know if I can do it on my own.
I mean we've barely been a couple for 10 months and we had already been living together for about 6 months or so before but now it's gotten more serious. "Honey I'm home!!" Jeff hollered from the living room. "I'm over here!" I yelled. "Dammit." I cursed under my breath rushing to cover myself up before he walked in. I threw his pillow over me. He walked through the door. "Hey baby!" he said dropping his bags on the floor and made himself comfortable beside me. I leaned into kiss him still holding the pillow close to me to hide my belly. He pulled away smiling. "I'm gonna shower then I'll get us some dinner. You stay there and do nothing." I smiled. "I've tried doing that and it doesn't work. I need to keep busy." "Please tell me you haven't been pushing yourself?" he asked looking at my ankle. "No but I have been bored." I frowned.
"Not anymore. I'm home for the next 3-4 months." he smiled happily. "What about your job? Won't you be missing out on the title?" "Yeah but I don't want to miss out on anymore time with you. Plus I need time off. Vince and Hunter agreed to give me the time to rest and come back better and possibly win the title." he had stripped down to his boxers. I smirked at the sight. "Like what you see?" I laughed throwing an extra pillow at him. Great he's gonna be here even longer than I expected. Now I have to tell him. But how am I gonna tell him? How am I gonna tell him he's gonna be father? Should I even tell him? Can I handle it if he doesn't want the baby? What if he doesn't want to be with me anymore? Ughh! Why can't I just have a normal life like everyone else? "Oh that's right! I'm not like everyone else." I said to myself. "Did you say something babe?" I huffed.
"Just looking to see what's on TV!" "Okay!" and with that I knew I couldn't tell him I was pregnant with his baby. I just can't. But how do I go on with the next 6 months lying to him when I'll be getting bigger. "So what do you feel like eating?" "Whatever is fine with me." I smiled. After he got dressed we ordered takeout and got to talking about how much some of the girls miss me and how work was while I was gone. Not much better as Jeff told me. "I'll be right back." I said walking to the bathroom. When I came back I found Jeff with my phone in his hands and his face told a story. "What's wrong babe?" I asked confused then realized I left my phone open to my texts with Erica. We were texting just before he came home. I told her I was pregnant but I wasn't sure if I should tell him.
She said "tell him" and I fought her on the subject. In the end I knew she was right but I didn't want to admit it to her. "Pregnant?" was all he could say. I started to cry. He's gonna leave me. That's it. He's gonna leave me because I'm pregnant. "Clare, are you pregnant?" I stayed silent thinking if I should tell him. I need to tell him. "Y-yes. I'm pregnant." I kept staring at the floor. I can't look him in the eye. Just as I closed my eyes shut I felt his body close to mine. His arms wrapped around me spinning me around. I laughed on instinct. "I thought you'd hate me." I said wiping away some tears. "Clare baby, I don't hate you. I would never. I'm...I'm so happy. You have no idea how happy I am. I love you and I love this baby. Our baby....Our baby." he said astonished. I smiled watching his face change all types of emotions. "How far along are you?" "I'm 3 months pregnant."
"3 months?" I nodded. "You didn't you tell me." I looked away. He put his index finger under my chin making me look at him. "Why didn't you tell me?" "I-I was afraid. I was afraid you'd leave me because I was pregnant." "Baby, I would never leave you. Ever. I love you even more because of this. You're gonna give birth to a beautiful baby. Our baby. And do you wanna know why the baby is gonna be beautiful?" "Why?" I asked quietly. "Because you're beautiful." he smiled brushing my cheek with his thumb. Staring into my eyes. "I love you." I said to him so softly. "I love you more." he whispered leaning into kiss me. Once our lips touched I felt sparks, I felt happy. He makes me happy. And those eyes just pull me in and those lips of his have some kind of hold on me. I can't break free. But then why would I ever want to? We pulled away smiling.