11. The truth
Louis took my hand when we would go to his home. The pub closed, but nobody else wanted to sleep. I noticed that Niall still was missing but I chose to smile and just follow along.
"Next week I'll go to Italy." I heard Harry say. I noted that they were still superficial and all was about money and things that cost.
"Fun!" I heard Louis exclaim. He held my hand tightly and actually I was wondering why. He used to hate me, and he despised everything that had to do with me, but now he held my hand?
"I actually haven't cleaned up today!" said Louis, and he pulled me into his living room. I saw no dust and I realized he was trying to charm me. I didn't care. Instead, I sat down on the couch and I saw that everyone else was laughing. Was that all that they did? Talked about money and laughed. I swallowed and I tried to keep up with the conversation. Louis sat down next to me and he took his arm around my shoulders.
"You really have changed?" he said kindly in my ear. "I like what I see."
I hesitated and I looked at him.
"But I'm Sally?"
He grinned and he looked down at my body.
"Yeah, but you look better now."
I neither blushed or smiled. I just felt how his words slipped off my body. I didn't care about what he thought about me. It wasn't important anymore.
"You're like a little sponge." he groaned. "I just want to eat you."
"No good line if you want to charm me."
"So you play hard to get?"
I gave him a cold gaze.
"No, I'm still Sally and you don't want me."
His hand slipped down over my dress and it landed on the same spot where Simon had put his hand.
"Come on. You're hot and I'm hot. Lets be hot together?"
I tore myself away from him and I was angry.
He was surprised and everyone fell silent. I realized that everyone had heard me and I panicked.
"The only thing you care about is the outside and I just even get more angry when I see how boring you are." I almost screamed. "I'm not who you are and it doesn't matter if you change everything that's me. I will never be like you are."
Louis stood up and I saw that he was trying to calm me down.
"Admit that you are happier?"
I frowned and I looked at him.
"No!" I answered honestly. "Okay I get more attention, but I was actually happy with my life. I knew what would happen tomorrow and I liked to be gray."
Perrie came up to me and she took her arm around my shoulders.
"Don't shout, my friend."
I almost started to cry and I gave her a quick glance.
"You know nothing." I sobbed. "The only reason I wanted to be with you was because I wanted to be with Niall and even now he don't want me. Why does it matter?"
"I think we're tired."
All agreed, but not me.
"I'm not tired. I'm just unlucky."
She pulled me towards the hall.
"You'll spend the night with me tonight. I promise that you will wake up refreshed in the morning."
"No, I wanna go home."
She helped me get on my jacket.
"No, you wont be alone tonight. We go home to me now."
I cried myself to sleep in Perries couch and I felt so small. I didn't want to go home. I realized that I didn't wanted to be close Nialls apartment. I didn't want to hear how he took home a lot of girls and I didn't want to be one of the crowd.
My life was over!