I ran almost as fast as the others. Niall had awakened me early in the morning and it felt okay to come out. Perrie and Eleanor meet us up in the park and this morning we ran the same round as the previous morning. I felt the wind on my face and it was as if my legs couldn't stop moving.
"How's it going?"
I met Nialls gaze.
He smiled and chose to run beside me.
"You're good now?"
"Wait a week, then I realize that it's not that fun anymore."
He laughed a little bit.
"This your gonna do the whole month." he said happily. "So it's just at get used to it."
I agreed and nodded,
He smiled at me
"And you'll just smile."
When I got home I took a shower and I stood in front of the mirror. I hated my body and I wasn't keen to see myself naked, but I noticed a change. I wasn't as ugly as I had imagined. I had a good figure and actually, I looked like all the other girls. I realized that I had been hidden under clothes and it felt good to come to that realization. So it was with a sad look as I opened my closet. My clothes were maybe not funny and I understood why Louis had laughed at me. I took out a sweater and a skirt. It would have to do! Then I put on the high-heeled shoes and I went to the kitchen. I had bought home new food, such food as Eleanor and Perrie ate. I wasn't too excited to change the diet and when I cut the lettuce into pieces I enjoyed. My new life was about to show up a new me and I was glad that I had agreed to it.
Eleanor turned up in the afternoon with a tape measure.
"We need to see what your size!" she said, and I agreed. I had no idea about my actual size.
"So that means?"
"Next week we will change your clothes. This week, you just go jogging in the woods, practicing with the shoes and be sure to bring order to the food."
I was happy.
"No, not really."
I felt how she took my measurements and she did it with care.
"You have a good figure." she said suddenly. I blushed and looked at her.
"Are you serious?"
"I'm not lying about sizes."
"So I'm not a hopeless case?"
"No one has said that you are a hopeless case."
"Louis doesn't believe that?"
"That guy doesn't even believe in his own mom or dad."
She stopped to measure me and she smiled big. She looked down at my shoes and she was happy.
"YOU are a good student?"
"I'll just nod and say yes?"
"And you're funny."
I woke up early every morning. Sometimes all three was with me and sometimes we were only two that gave us out in the woods. I felt my body slowly got used to it all and when the weekend came, I had no muscle soreness. Instead, it felt good in my body and I had got used to the shoes. It was like I almost flew across the floor and just to test my limits, I had the shoes on when I was outside.
"In the morning, you are free." Niall said to me on Saturday.
"Eleanor will with her family, Perrie is busy with other things and I think you deserve a day off."
I wanted to say that I didn't want to be free. I wanted to be with Niall or with the girls. They made me feel more important, but I chose to just nod. Niall saw that I responded and he laughed a little bit.
"Don't tell me that you don't want a day off?"
"It's just that..." I hesitated. "It feels like I've got a life."
He looked at me for long and he pondered.
"Okay." he mumbled and nodded a little bit. "I can take you to a restaurant, if you want?"
Niall raised his eyebrows.
"Just as a friend and nothing more. I promise to keep me on my edge."
I didn't want him to stay on the edge, but as always I smiled and nodded. I certainly looked pleased.
"You look like a scared rabbit, but I promise you that I wont seduce you."
I wanted him to seduce me.
"We are good friends and I intend to continue to be friends with you."
I want more!
I was angry at myself. I was such a coward and I didn't dare to do anything. I stood in front of the mirror and I quickly took off my shoes. I looked at my face, my hair, and I realized why Niall wanted to be friends with me. Okay that my legs looked great in high heels, but now when I saw myself ... I just looked boring.
"What do I believe?" I whispered aloud to myself. "Even I don't want a partner who's like me."
I spun around and I looked at my body, which was hidden under all my clothes.
"Foul!" I said loudly and then I sighed heavily. I wanted that Perrie or Eleanor could help me with the clothes faster. I wanted to know what I would have on and I wanted to change everything that was me.
I sat on the couch and I heard that Niall was moving in his apartment. I turned up the volume on my TV and I swallowed. Why, I had that bad habit to always listening to him? He was just a neighbor and he was just my friend. Nothing more and nothing less. I sighed and once again I got the imagination coming up. I saw Niall in front of me and how he leaned toward me. I could almost feel his lips meet mine and I could hear him moan. I almost felt his naked chest and how he put the weight over me. I blushed and I stopped fantasizing.
"Stop it!" I mumbled quietly to myself. Niall wanted a model, one that was stylish and not a guinea pig like me.
In the morning I had had time for everything. Just to pass the time, I cleaned quickly in the apartment and I realized that I really had a boring life. Not even the books attracted me and I lined them up neatly on the bookshelf. There was a knock on the door and my stomach tingled. I opened it and immediately I saw Nialls face. He didn't look happy.
"I can't eat with you today." he said quickly, and I felt in the whole that I was disappointed. He looked quickly at his watch and he gave me an apologetic look.
"My mother." he whispered uncertainly. "She needs help."
I heard he was lying, but I chose to swallow my pride.
"That's okay." I said kindly. "There will be another day?"
He nodded quickly. I saw him walk away and he left a lonely Sally behind. I just wanted to cry and I just wanted to scream, but instead I closed the door and I sat down on the floor. So my day was going to be alone?
In the evening, I heard giggling and I knew what had happened. Another girl in Nialls apartment and this night pounded the bed harder against the wall. It was as if he wanted to prove that I was a nobody. "Sally, do you hear what I do with her?" I could see how he grinned at me. "You know that I can fuck everyone else, but not you."
I self-pitying and I cried. I put two pillows over my head and I chose not to fantasize. I heard the faint sound from Nialls bed and I almost wanted to scream out straight. He had indeed lied to me. He hadn't been with his mom and he wanted to prove that I was unworthy of him. I was a nobody, same gray mouse that before, and I meant nothing to him.