12. Fixing It
I sat in my room crying and it's been about 5 hours and Beau still hasn't knocked on the door to check if I was ok. My eyes were red and puffy and my heart was shattered into pieces, and my arms had red marks on them from Beau grabbing them so hard and my head hurt from him throwing me on the ground. I'm scared of him now. I'm scared to leave my room now. I'm scared to face Beau. What if he hurts me again? I laid on my back staring up at the ceiling thinking. The more I thought of Beau the more frightened I got. My palms got all sweaty. My heart started racing. Butterflies started swarming my stomach. My face started to get hot. What have I done? I just lost my boyfriend. My hope. Tears started to fill my eyes. I jumped up and grabbed my suitcase from my closet and packed as much stuff as I possibly could. I got paper and pen and wrote a note saying:
Thankyou so much for all you've done for me. You mean the world to me! But if you're gonna hit me and treat me poorly I'm not gonna wanna be with you. And I didn't cheat on you. It was a prank. I was going to tell you but I guess I was too late. Im going to fly down and live with my parents now. I'm sorry and I love you...
I teared up writing the note but then took a deep breath and put the note on my bed post. I grabbed my suitcase and opened the window. I live in a 3 story house and I'm on the 2nd story. I threw my suitcase down and then managed to get myself down only with a few scratches. I grabbed my keys from my pocket and got in my car and drove away. I'm sorry Janoskians...I'm sorry...