Broken Like I Am *Sequel to TMAIA*

I don't think I have ever cried this hard in my life.

"I'm sorry. I'm so so so so sorry," I cry and hold his hand.

"I'm done, Cammy. I can't do this anymore," he tells me and leaves me crying.

"Please. I'm sorry. So sorry," I whisper as I cry.

*This the sequel to Take Me As I Am. Please read that story first before you read this one. Thank you. :)*

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5. Smiles All Around

Cammy's POV-

"Do you want to play through it?" he asks me. We are currently sitting in a park we found. It's beautiful and the cool thing is, that no one knows that it's here. So we have the whole park to ourselves.

The writing session is going great actually. We work really well together. We finished a whole song and it's awesome. I still have to ask him if him and the rest of his band want to duet with Robbers with me.

"Sure," I smile at him. There has been a lot of smiling today. But I can't help it. Matt makes me smile and I make him smile too.

He's playing guitar while I sing.

"I drove by all the places we used to hang out getting wasted. I thought about our last kiss, how it felt the way you tasted. And even though your friends tell me you’re doing fine. And you’re somewhere feeling lonely even though he’s right beside you. When he says those words that hurt you do you read the ones I wrote you?" I begin the song, immediately thinking about Drew. The song is about Drew.

"Sometimes I start to wonder, was it just a lie? If what we had was real, how could you be fine? Cause I'm not fine at all," I sing the pre-chorus.

"I remember the day you told me you were leaving, I remember the makeup running down my face. And the dreams you left behind you didn’t need them, like every single wish we ever made. I wish that I could wake up with amnesia, forget about the stupid little things. Like the way it felt to fall asleep next to you and the memories I never can escape. Cause I’m not fine at all," I sing the chorus.

"The pictures that you sent me they’re still living in my phone. I admit I like to see them, I admit I feel alone. All my friends keep asking why I’m not around. It hurts to know you’re happy and to face that you’ve moved on. It’s hard to hear your name when I haven’t seen you in so long," the second verse comes around.

"It’s like we never happened, was it just a lie? If what we had was real, how could you be fine? Cause I'm not fine at all," I sing the pre-chorus again.

"I remember the day you told me you were leaving, I remember the makeup running down my face. And the dreams you left behind you didn’t need them, like every single wish we ever made. I wish that I could wake up with amnesia, forget about the stupid little things. Like the way it felt to fall asleep next to you and the memories I never can escape," I sing and prepare to go into the bridge.

"If today I woke up with you right beside me, like all of this was just some twisted dream. I’d hold you closer than I ever did before and you’d never slip away. And you’d never hear me say," I say and we put a dramatic moment of silence.

"I remember the day you told me you were leaving, I remember the makeup running down my face. And the dreams you left behind you didn’t need them, like every single wish we ever made. I wish that I could wake up with amnesia, forget about the stupid little things. Like the way it felt to fall asleep next to you and the memories I never can escape," I sing the chorus and leave a little part for only guitar to play.

"Cause I'm not fine at all," I finish singing and take a deep breath. I look over to Matt and he's smiling at me.

"You sound amazing," he tells me.

"Thank you. Do you like the song?" I ask him.

"I love it. I think it's going to be a hit," he says and gives me a high five.

"I think I'm going to name it Amnesia," I say.

"That sounds sick," he tells me. And guess what? We both smile again.

"I have a question for you," I nervously say.

"Anything love," he says. My heart flutters at the sound of him calling me 'love'.

"Well I have this song. It's called Robbers. I think it would be really cool if you and the rest of The 1975 duet on it with me. Maybe we can even record it together and put it on both of our albums or something," I suggest.

"That seems cool. I would need to hear the song first," he says.

"Okay," I say. I use his guitar and sing the song.

"Yes! A million times yes! That is such a good song!" he says.

"You really think so?" I ask him.

"Of course! I really like it!" he smiles.

"Thank you," I smile at him for like the millionth time today.

 

"So, you have my number right?" he asks.

"Yup and you've got mine?" I respond and he nods his head.

"Well I had a really good time, Cammy," he smiles.

"I had a good time with you too," I smile. Gosh we're smiling idiots.

"Want to hang out sometime again soon? Maybe do something other than writing," he asks.

"Are you asking me on a date, Matt?" I ask.

"Not unless you want it to be," he says nervously.

"I mean I rather not right now because I'm still recovering from Drew," I say.

"I understand," he says and looks sad.

"I still want to hang out with you," I say and smile at him.

"Really? Cool. How about Saturday?" he asks. Today is Thursday so it's two days away.

"Perfect," I say.

"Okay, well have a good night," he smiles.

"You too. Bye Matt," I say and get out of his car.

"Bye Cam," he says. I close the door and watch his car drive off.

 

When I walk inside my house, all of the boys are in the living room.

"How did it go?" Zayn asks.

Really, really good.

 

A/N-

Credit to 5 Seconds of Summer for their song Amnesia. I wasn't planning on using one of their songs because they're in the story often, but it was the perfect song for her situation.

Credit to The 1975 for their song Robbers.

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