Atelphobia

Atelphobia; the fear of never being good enough... Dear Harry... I'm slowly giving up, I don't know how much more i can take of this shit. Like for real, everyday i ask my self the same question, "What The Fuck Is Wrong With Me?!" and every night i glide that same silver blade across my body. Its starting to scare me because the pain that the cuts and the beatings used to give me is gone, the pain in my mind is growing. But what scares me more is the fact that im falling for you, falling hard and i have nobody to catch me before i hit the floor. One day i hope i will be good enough for you and the world. But at the moment I feel like im lost in this deep dark hole and you are the only one that can pull me out, my hands are tied and im scared to show everyone who i really am. One thing i have come to learn in my 16 years of life is society is a bitch and everyone judges, I'm scared the boys and you will judge me, im writing in this letter to tell you my story. Even though this is a small passage i hope you understand what im going through. Please Don't judge. Love always ~ Josie

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