"Head in the clouds, got no weight on my shoulders"
When I was little, I thought life was perfect. But now, everything is a lie. I face things every single day ever since my mom died. About 80 percent of them involve my dad. He wants me to be something that I'm not, and it's stupid. I can't change myself, but in order to appease to him, I made this compromise with him. This compromise was worse than what he wants me to actually be. I've got 99 problems. But you, Ashton, won't be one.


32. I'm alone

I can say that Saturday was one of the worst days of my life. Period.

After the text, Marlee and I got into a big fight.

Okay so we've had small fights here and there, but this one was a big one for both of us.

It was one Friday after school, and I've been ignoring my friends all day. So, I went to Marlee's house. She answered the door and I was the first to speak.

"What the hell Mar?! You go to me asking for advice on if you should have sex with Luke and I said to wait. What did you do?! Not wait!"

"Well I'm sorry if what you said felt wrong to me and when I got home I felt like I was!"

"So you lied to me?! Your best friend?!"

"It was what I thought was best for my relationship with Luke!"

"You know what, don't talk to me. I don't want to deal with your bullshit. Also tell Luke to not talk to me either. We're done!" I yell at her and walk to my car and back home where I spent a good chunk of the day in my room.

That was six weeks ago. I haven't talked to Marlee and Luke ever since.

In fact, Calum and Michael stopped talking to me around the same time and I don't know why. My guess is that Marlee told them about what happened.

So the only person left for me to talk to was Ashton.

We had just celebrated two months of being a couple, and I was okay with that. He took me out for a fancy dinner on Sunday and it was beautiful.

But when we think all is great, think again.

Now we get to Saturday. I was texting Mara, yes the same girl from my AP gov class, about stuff. We've gotten close since my fight with Marlee and I appreciate that a lot. But we aren't close yet for me to tell her about my real life.

I did have a crazy experience last night at the club, but hey the night is over and in the past. It was about to rain because I can hear a bit of thunder outside, but it's okay. California needs rain anyways.

There was a knock on my door. I look at it to see Ashton at the door. I get up and walk over to open it. I wasn't expecting him today.

"Hey." I say leaning to give him a kiss, but he backed away. What the hell.

"Who are you really?" He asked in a stern manner.

"Ash, what do you mean?"

"Don't Ash me! I know you don't just work at the library! I know you work at a club!" He yelled.

I froze in my tracks.

How did he know?


"I got a text from Derek. He sent me this." He took out his phone and handed it to me. My mouth hung open.

Derek Hale must've noticed me at the club and figured out it was me and sent Ashton a picture.

I look up at him. "Ashton it's not what you think..." I'm literally about to cry now.

"No it is! I've been dealing with a lying bitch once again! I thought I could trust you but seeing that how can I even trust you?! Are you sure you're who you say you are, or are you just a slut?!" His voice raises and his words are hurting me as I cry more.

"Please stop!" I yell.

"No! We're done, Connor Watson! Do you hear me?! WE'RE FUCKING DONE!" He yells as loud as he can and storms away.

Leaving me in my demise of regret.

"Connor!" Hanna ran to where I was and hugged me. "I heard everything."

I had no strength to respond to her.

"Con, your father..." Do I even give two fucks about my father? "Your father is missing."

This day just got worse.

I get up and grab my phone. Wiping away tears as many were still forming from the fact that my breakup with Ashton is still recent, I do something I never thought I'd do.

I called my dad.

I pace back and forth as it then went to voice mail.

"Dad it's Connor where are you?! PLEASE ANSWER!" I never thought that I'd need my dad in a time like this. When I realized he wouldn't answer after minutes of screaming, I hung up and ran up to the roof.

I thank got the roof to my house had a flat surface.

I wanted to take Ashton up here sometime soon, as it was a place I would always go to when I was little. But I can't now.

The rain began to fall on my face but I didn't care.

When it let up and I saw the sunset, Audrey came up to me with a sweater and a cup of tea. As I took a sip, I think of everything.

My mom is dead. I have no connections with the rest of my family.

Marlee betrayed me, along with Luke. Calum and Mike won't look at me. I lost all of my best friends.

But what can be worst: my dad disappearing suddenly or Ashton breaking up with me?

I'm alone.

So this was a pretty deep chapter to write. But it's storming where I live and it has been for the entire week and my muse for this story came back. I also listened to It's Quiet Uptown and it made me want to cry my little Connor bean!! :'( So thanks for reading!


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