My child

I lost my child (by adoption), I lost a part of myself and I had to continue. I had no idea where my daughter was and I wasn't the girl who dared to think of her.


6. My date

Niall chose to take with me to a restaurant. He came and picked me up with his car. I was so nervous and my whole body shook. He rang the doorbell and when I opened, he had a rose with him to me. I blushed. 
"Thank you?" 
Niall blushed too. 
"I know it looks stupid, but I didn't want to come empty-handed." 
I smiled and let him in. Then I went quickly into the bedroom and put on my shoes. When I came into the room again, Niall had stopped in front of my photographs. 
"Your parents?" 
I smiled and nodded. He then looked at me again and seemed almost amused. I felt the entire stomach tingled. His eyes were so blue and they really looked at me. It was as if he wouldn't drop me with his eyes.
"You're beautiful!" 
I blushed and I lowered my head. No one had called me beautiful before. Okay, that guy who took my virginity, but he hadn't meant it. 
"You too ..." 
Niall laughed and came over to me. He took my face between his hands and forced me to look up at him. 
"Guys aren't beautiful." he said with an amused voice. "It's only girls can be that. You should understand that you look great."
I blushed. 
"Thank you!" 
Niall smiled and released me. 
"You're such a girl who should be more confident, but you isn't?" 
I swallowed. 
"A lot has happened in my life that have influenced me." 
Niall understood me. I don't know why he didn't ask more, but he was satisfied with my answer.


We came to the restaurant and we sat down at a table. Niall ordered food and he ordered in wine for us. It was the first time I was on a date, but I wasn't sure it was a date. Niall had just wanted to meet me and nothing else. 
"So much has happened?" he said when the food came out. "Have you been one of those teenager who was out half the night?" 
He asked with a twinkle in his eye. I shook my head quickly. It wasn't the whole truth, but I didn't want to tell him my secret, not yet. 

"You could say that other things have happened." 
Niall smiled and looked at me. 
"I'll be honest." he said, and seemed almost dream himself away. "I like that you are who you are. You aren't like Candy or other girls of your age."
I laughed a little bit and tasted the food. 
"I have chosen a different path." I replied and looked at him. "To be honest I'm not used to that guys ask me out." 
Niall didn't believe me. He lifted an eyebrow. 
"You're serious?" 
I nodded. I had to be honest. 
"I had a bad reputation and therefore didn't many guys interested in me." 
Niall hesitated. He put his fork down and looked at me. 
"What had you done?" 
I felt a lump in my stomach. I wondered if I would be honest or not. In the end, I had to make a choice. 
"I got pregnant. Fact, I had only six once, and nine months later I gave birth to a child. My mom and everyone around me forced me to adopt."
I saw at him that his mind spun around. I realized it was a mistake to tell the truth. Therefore, I wasn't sure anymore. 
"Like I said, I have suffered many times." 
Niall was still quiet and it was almost creepy. 
"I understand your reaction." I whispered disapproval. "I usually get that reaction when I tell the truth." 
Niall shook his head quickly. He looked straight into my eyes and took my hand across the table. 
"No, I was just surprised. I understand you and I understand why you didn't like Candy. I understand everything and that's okay."
I hesitated. 
"Is that okay?" 
Niall nodded and smiled weakly. 
"Thank you for telling it to me."


After dinner we walked around a round in the city. Niall was talking about his daughter and I talked about my life. It was as if we had known each other forever and Niall was so much more than just a pretty face.


I had no idea what time it was when we came to Nialls place. 
"You want to come in?" 
I hesitated. 
"It's late?" 
Niall smiled and he didn't seem to give up. 
"I won't pick up Kitty until tomorrow afternoon. Shall I accompany you home?" 
I hesitated. 
"I live just a few houses away." 
He laughed. 
"No, you live a good distance from here." he took my hand and he pulled me towards the door. "I promise to be good and I promise not to be like that stupid guy!" 
I didn't know what guy he was talking about. Niall smiled and opened the door. 
"If I had made ​​you pregnant, I had kept you."


My body tingled. My legs were weak, and we sat in his couch. Niall put on music and he made ​​no attempt to seduce me or do anything stupid. Instead continued our conversation and we laughed a lot. The sun was about to get up when I happened to fall asleep. It was as if my body just fell asleep and I had no control over anything.

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