Worse +16

(Sequel to Bad )
It happened .They fell in love . Unconditional love as they call it . Something nobody NOT EVEN Justin and Selena could compete with . The perfect relationship was then runied by Betrayal , Jealousy, Backstabbing , and an already broken heart . A broken girl .. more confued and shattered . Love turned into abuse . It Even turned a bad boy .. To a worse one in a matter of seconds . They say you can't fix what's already been broken . WILL THINGS EVER BE THE SAME ? .. or nah


30. Chapter 30

I'm remaking this chapter ... it was throwing me off for so long . lol

Zayn's P.O.V

"Dad please !" I screamed . "Shut up . Now watch!!" My dad said . His powerful voice pounding against my eardrum . I never understood why he was doing this . Why did he get such a thrill out of hurting our family . And why he made me watch night and day . All the time I asked myself why didn't my mum leave ? Why didn't I take them away myself ? . 

He pulled me in front of my mum turned backwards on the couch and my sister sitting on the floor . "What did I say about dis obeying my rules ?!!" He yelled . I heard no answer from nor my mum or sister . Just crying . The sound of hurt and struggle . "I-I'm sowwy daddy " Safaa cried hoping that would make things better .As soon as that left her mouth the strike of the belt went across her little face making her scream in pain. "SHUT THE FUCK UP !!" He yelled . From that moment on be beat both my older sister and my 2 younger sisters while he brutally raped my mother . In front of his own child . His own blood . His face read satisfaction . Mines read hurt . 

I backed into the corner tears streaming down my face as I couldn't take it anymore .Was this actually the way to be ? He turned and faced me . The devious smirk on his face . He said the words .

"This is how to treat a lady " 
*End of flasback*

I sat at the end of my bed in my room my head in my hands . I eventually got up and lit myself a cigarette . I was so heart broken . So hurt . I thought of where my future was actually going with Bri . She's actually gonna leave me .

Its kinda sad for me to just already give up but I have to state the facts . She's not gonna stay with someone so angry . So abusive .

So hurt on the inside that he has to take it out on his love . His life . His everything . I walked to the balcony of my room and leaned against the railing dropping my ashes from the 7 story building separating the mentally sick from the mentally challenged .

The whole time I looked up into the night sky I couldn't stop thinking her . Shes probably with Harry . And I'm always so mad that I need to realize that I should be thanking him . He's kept her safe from me . I just want her to be safe really and that's all he has been doing . 

I tried to kill him , I hurt him , for saving my wife from being hurt from me . I remember when I used to get pissed when she talked about her Best friend ,Harry Styles . But now that I think about it best friends protect each other right . Harry has been nothing but a good best friend and I tried so hard to keep her away from him . To keep her away from turning into my mother .

I was so scared when that happened to my mom and my sister and now I'm gonna stand her and do it to my own wife . It makes me mad . Angers me to death . 

 Why are you still standing here ? . Why don't you just give up ? .  

Heavy tears began to stream down my face as I realized .

I'm not wanted . My wife doesn't love me . My family doesn't love me . I have nobody . Why am I still here on earth dealing with this ? . I finally dropped my cigarette below my feet stepping on it before walking inside . I grabbed my notebook and a black pen off the bedside table and began to write . 

Whoever gets this , 

I'm sorry for everything . I'm sorry for what I put you all through . I'm sorry for the mess .

I'm sorry for the broken hearts , The pain , The scars . Tell Briannah not to think it was her fault . 

Because its not . Everyday it became harder and harder to stand . and today I realized I can't do it anymore . Someone tell Bri that I love her and I'm sorry for hurting her . For bringing her down .

I want her to move on without me . Be with Harry . She needs him honestly . 

Shes better off without me anyway . Someone tell my mom I love her . Shes been there since I was a little boy . 

Helped me through more than just homework . but how to deal with the trauma a little boy shouldn't have to go through . 

The pain I saw in her eyes back then is the same pain I got used to seeing everyday . 

Someone tell my father . who is why I have to go . That he made me this way  . 

Broken , Heartless, My life was fucked up because of him . and I just want him to know that I hate him .

Tell my sisters I love them . Remind my friends of our good times . 

and Someone tell Harry . Thank you . 

I can't wait til the day I can see all of you again . 

I'll be waiting at heavens gates for all of you . I love you . Goodbye :(

-Zayn Javaad Malik ♥

I cried the whole time writing it . The tears stains and smeared ink read it all . I laid the notebook on the bed and cried a little more my head in my hands.  I then got up and went to the bathroom running water in the tub . I removed the razor blade from my razor .

I sat in the cold water still in my clothes , I held the blade to my wrist cutting myself many times before I began to breath hard . The water was red now . My eyes were beginning to close . I dropped the blade out of weakness . And before I knew it .. It was OVER . 

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