Arctic// Luke Hemmings

"The realization that she's gone hit me like a blast of cold air,like in the arctic.That's how I live my life."


2. One

The words have ran through my mind for about two months.

Goodbye, Luke.

I couldn't think of anything else.She never called, stopped by, or texted.I have basically never left my apartment- what used to be ours- since she left me.

I can't cry anymore, it's as if the tears have all came out, like a rainforest that became a desert.All I can do is lay in bed, and cry.The boys are the only reason I'm alive right now, which, to be completely honest, I wish that I wasn't.I wish they would have let me rot in my tears, alone.

I have lost all strength, I don't eat, all I do is lay around, thinking what if.

To sum my condition up;I'm depressed.

My mind always goes back to that late night.I never feel hope that she will come back; she would have already.

My day consists of sleeping for hours, the boys pestering me to get up and try to do something, or eat, which never happens.I call her phone, only for her to not answer.I listen to her sweet voice on the voicemail,and then going back to sleep.My life really has no meaning anymore, she was the reason for my life.She was the reason that I was created.

That's the thing about pain, it demands to be felt.Whether it is good pain or bad pain.And I feel it, it feels as if someone is punching me over and over again in the chest, and I can't do anything to stop it, just feel it.

Everyone thinks i'm over-reacting.But what they don't get is how much of my life she actually was and is.She is much more to me than just a relationship down the drain.No, she was my past, my present, and my future.

I snuggle under my blankets, as the cold air runs through my apartment.

There's a knock on my door; and it opens.

"Luke, I can't bear to see you like this." Calum says, dropping to his knees next to my bed and looking at me.He puts a sandwitch on my side table.

"You have to do something, c'mon, you're over-reacting about this whole thing."

"Don't act like you care." I say, becoming dizzy.

"I'm not acting." He says.

"Cal, I just want to die." I start crying.

"Luke, don't be like that.I promise you, it will get better." Calum pats me on the back.

"I just want her, Cal.You don't understand." I say, screaming into the pllow and crying harder.This is kinda a daily routine for me.

 " I know, Luke.I know.I'm doing my best to help you, please just let me."

"Cal, what would you guys do if I killed myself? Would you guys even care, like would you just be relieved that I was gone so you wouldn't have to try to take care of me?" I ask, bringing my face up from the pillow, and looking at Calum.

"We would care.So damn much, for that matter.Here, eat this and try to come out of here, okay?" Calum asks. I nod, knowing I wouldn't eat it and I wouldn't go out there.

Calum exits the room, as I pick up the sandwitch, taking one bite and throwing it back down onto the plate.I lay my head back down, falling back asleep.


Calum's POV

"Zoey!Zoey, open up.I really need to speak to you." I say, banging on her door.She opens it, frowning.

"What do you want?" 

"Do you have a minute?It's about Luke?" I say, letting myself into her house.

"Calum, you know I love him, but I can't get back together with him after what he did." She says, sitting down on the couch.

"It's not really about that- well it kinda is.Luke hasn't left his apartment since you broke it off with him.He has probably lost about 20 pounds from not eating, and he wants to kill himself.We have tried everything, but he just gets worse.He misses you so much.Can you please talk to him, for his sake." I say.

"Really?" I could see tears gathering in her eyes.

"Yeah, will you please come and talk to him, please." I plead.

"Yeah, ofcourse.I don't want anything to happen to Luke." She says,standing up.


"Yes." She answers, walking out of the door, as I follow close behind.The ride in the car is silent,  as if we were riding to a funeral.

Luke's POV

"Luke, Luke.Wake up, mate.I have a suprise for you." I hear Calum's voice, as he shakes my fragile body, signalling me to wake up.

"What do you want, Calum? I'm not in the mood." I say, rolling over to face him standing beside my bed.

"I'll be right back, stay awake." He smiles, walking out into the hall.

Seconds later he comes back, with someone trailing behind him.

But not just someone.Zoey.






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