2. Chapter 1
It was the summer of 2012 when my life changed forever. I begun high school and I was able to change my life, that was if I wanted to and I stuck to the right groups. If I thought strategically, I had my whole game plan written down. I was ready to conquer everything, I don't know what happened. Did I say something wrong? I don't know what happened but I got stuck back with my best friend from primary school and being picked on. Maybe I wasn't supposed to have a wide range of friends? Maybe I was destined for something different?
That first year I was a quiet one, I talked to a few people but then they suddenly weren't my friends anymore. I finished my work when I could and I tried my best, half way through the year I gave up.
Things had happened before I started school that year, things that were hard to forget. That's when I first developed my eating disorder, I went from eating 3 meals a day to 1. I was running around and exercising allot, I went onto my school's soccer team but I was the let down.
The funniest thing happened to me in grade 9 though, I was covering up my left wrist for about a week and everyone was asking me about it. One kid, his name was Josh. He came up to me and asked "Cassie, you aren't cutting are you?" It's funny how I said no, then later that night I went home and realised that maybe cutting could take my pain away. So 3 months later, the September of 2013 I began cutting.
Cutting, I can't even describe how it feels. It saves you from the pain inside while inflicting the shame you have on yourself on your own body. I knew one day it could almost get me killed, and I didn't care.... Until the day it happened.