I like the way you sound in the morning. We're on the phone and without a warning. I realize your laugh is the best sound. I have ever heard. I like the way I can't keep my focus. I watch you talk, you didn't notice. I hear the words but all I can think is we should be together. Every time you smile, I smile. And every time you shine, I'll shine for you...
Jump The Fall by Taylor Swift was playing in the car as Liam drove. It just reminded me so much of my feelings towards Liam, but I just know he's not ever going to feel the same way towards me as I do to him. I rubbed my arms just thinking about it. How he'll never be mine, ever. He ran his hand through his hair making me want him. I wanna stay right here in this passenger's seat. He put his eyes on me. In this moment now capture it, I'll remember it. What's up Taylor Swift lyric reference! (Superwoman on youtube moment lol). I looked away as we pulled up into the McDonald's parking lot.
I searched around the car for my phone. I checked my pockets and while I dug under the passenger seat I felt something slightly cold but skinny. I pulled it out and gasped seeing it. It was my necklace that I lost awhile back and I never did find it, but now I've found it. It had an L for his name. I brought it into my chest and the memory flooded back in my mind.
It was about a little over a year ago. Liam and I sat on the Clevedon Pier (You & I music video) looking out on the water over our shoulders as we face each other.
"It's such a nice day. Don't you think, Keira?"
I looked back at Liam and nodded. I was losing my voice that day, so I couldn't talk all that much. He just smiled at me on that May Day that was sunny and no rain, but it sure was windy. As Liam and I sat in silence I couldn't help, but stare at his face studying his features. His jawline. his buzzcut haircut, his tan skin, his arm tattoos, his plaid shirt. Just about everything you can think of. I smiled to myself imagining what it would be like if he was mine. I was about to speak up and say something, but I remembered my voice wasn't the best today.
He turned to me and smiled saying, "I got you something. I hope you like it," he says reaching in his pocket and pulling out a necklace putting it in my hands. He moved his arm from the side of the mini wall and cupped my hands in his large one's so I wouldn't fully see it yet. He smiled with is eye catching smile as his red plaid shirt blew in the wind with his shiny brown eyes looking directly into mine. We stayed like that for a moment and he let go of my hands opening my hands. I saw it fully and gasped. It was simple, but perfect.
"I made it for you," he chuckles, "Nothing special, but it's at least something for your birthday. Happy birthday, Keira." he says smiling at me.
I felt the tears in my eyes start to form as I held the necklace tight in my chest. Liam was looking at me and put is hand on my shoulder reassuringly. I looked over at him in the driver's seat. We made eye contact once more and he moved his hand to my cheek touching it gently. One more tear fell down that cheek. I leaned against his warm hand closing my eyes. I felt his thumb caress my cheek. I sniffled and opened my eyes looking at him again. He smiled his beautiful smile and moved his hand. He leaned over and kissed my cheek. He looked into my eyes again. I could've swore his eyes were glistening. I felt a small smile form on my lips and he got out.
That moment was perfect. There were no words, but it was perfect. He went to the back of the car and around it to my side opening the door for me. I saw his hand in front of me and I put my hand in his. He helped me out of the car as I felt the sparks fly. I smiled up at him and he held out his hand again. I assumed he wanted the necklace. I handed it to him and he told me to turn around. I turned around and I felt his arms go up above my head. His hands moved to my neck as he held the necklace.
He clipped it on and I lifted my hair to help. I dropped my hair and the necklace was down to my heart like it was a year and a half ago. I turned to him after looking at it and we were only an inch away from each other's face. He was looking into my eyes with his hands in his pockets. He had a beard now, but I didn't care. He looked like a man that way. I smiled and hugged him around his neck tightly. His face was in my shoulder. He hugged me back tightly around my back with both of his arms. I felt him smile into my shoulder as he rubbed my back. We had a good 30 second long hug before we pulled away.
He smiled and closed my door. He put his hand in the middle of my back as he guided me inside of McDonald's. It's changed a lot. There's all different kinds of seat in here. Booths, stools, regular chairs, and cushion chairs. We went up to the cash register and he still had his hand in the middle of my back, which I didn't mine. It basically showed that I was his and nobody elses. But it wasn't true. We aren't together nor will be ever. Also, how protective he is. I chuckled into my head.
I then heard his voice, "Kay?"
He just laughed, "Order whatever you want. Ladies first," I blushed at that and ordered two crispy ranch snack wraps, medium fry, and a medium drink. "Alright, you can go find us somewhere to sit and I'll get our order and pay, alright, love?"
I nodded with a tint of pink in my cheeks from him calling me love. It made my heart flutter when he called me sweetheart, love, or even Kay or my real name. I know it may sound crazy, but it's not. It's just natural and I know I broke the #1 rule of having a guyfriend. Don't fall in love, but rules are meant to be broken, right? As I sat in the booth I couldn't help, but smile thinking about all the emotions I've felt with and without Liam. I'm too times happier with Liam then alone in my room watching youtube videos feeling bad for myself...
As Kay walked over to a booth I couldn't help, but smile at the way she walks. Just so gracefully and... and... what's a good word for it. I ran my fingers through my hair, perfect. yeah perfect. Just everything about her is perfect. She's truly a beautiful person inside out, no matter what the people say. I'm just wondering if she has a boyfriend. It would surprise me if she didn't. I mean look at her. Flawless skin, beautiful natural hair, her beautiful brown eyes, and not to mention her perfect figure. She's perfect, she could be a model, but I'll never tell her that. She must've saw me staring, so looked in a different direction. I turned away, but there was no way of hiding the smile on my face.
I heard her giggle and it made me smile. Her laugh was like music to my ears. I'll never admit it, but I love Kay more than anyone I've ever known and it's not a brotherly love. It's a real love. I mean I love Danielle more than anything, but with her everything is just so different. Nothing's awkward, it's peaceful. When she says my name or even when I talk to her I get flutters in my heart. With Dani, yeah I feel something, but it's not what I feel when I'm with Kay. It's not even close to it.
I saw her pull out her phone and put her headphones in. I smiled softly. I'm just afraid to tell her how I feel because I'm afraid it'll ruin our friendship. She probably doesn't feel the same towards me as I do to her. Besides she may have a boyfriend and I have a girlfriend that I love dearly, but not as much as I love my Keira over there. She's my true love. Everything and nothing is going to change my mind and when I say nothing. I do mean nothing...