7. Say Okay (Last Chapter)
You are fine. You are sweet. But I'm still a bit naive with my heart. When you're close I don't breathe. I can't find the words to speak. I feel sparks. But I don't want to be into you, if you're not looking for true love. No I don't wanna start seein' you, if I can't be your only one...
It's been about a month since my dad left me here. I've pretty much forgotten about Harry or I've tried to. I just can't get him off my mind. I feel more lonely and alone than I ever have before. Nobody has came to visit me. I bet I know why. I bet dad and 'mom' kept it a secret, so people won't ruin the plan. Whatever the hell the plan was. The nurses told me I'll be out of here in a matter of months. I'm glad because this is hell! I'm practically starved. I haven't been eating right, I haven't been getting much sleep from the lumpy bed. I just wanted to get out of here...
I just wanted to get out of this world... I suddenly started to consider suicide to get out of this world. I took a breath and felt my eyes water. I grabbed a piece of notebook paper and a pencil and began to write my suicide note.
Father, I know this may be a shock to you, but I am now about to make the great adventure. I cannot endure this agonizing paim any longer. It is all over my body. Neither can I face the impending blindness. Things just seemed to go too wrong many times including this. I must end this. There's no hope left and I'll be at peace. It wasn't you or anybody, but it's me, I choose death. I've remained strong for far too long and every girl has their breaking point and I'm way past mine.
Love Your Only Daughter,
P.S. Tell Harry I'll see him again and that I love him.
I got up from the bed and made my way over to the drawer that had all the pills that I was suppose to take in it. I took them out and went to the bathroom crying my eyes out. I filled the tub up with water and grabbed my blade from under the sink. I undressed and through my clothes every which way. I got into the hot water and started to carve into my arm the word 'Lost' I winced and let it bleed out as I overdosed on the pills. Forgive me for my sins...
This isn't the end of it!
There's going to be a sequel!
It'll be much longer than this!