9. Chapter 9: the pain
Chapter 9 the pain
The next weeks were hard. With Hope’s crying. Me being a new daddy. Missing Alli. Missing my love. Missing my other half. The only thing left of her is Hope. My precious Hope.
I would cry every now and then. Who wouldn’t? I had just lost my love. My everything.
I was having an episode again. Feeling the loss. Wanting the sharp pain to turn to dull pain. Wanting to get the sharp edges off. My tears fell out off my eyes. My breath came in hiccups. It felt like my insides were pulled out of me. I miss her so much. My tears were like waterfalls. My feelings became all over the place. I was sad because she wasn’t here. I was angry because I had times where I was happy. I felt guilty for trying to move on with my life. The pain became worse and my cries were real cries now. Cries filled with screams of pain. With screams of loss. With screams of grief. This wasn’t the way life was supposed to go. After crying for ages I felt numb. I had no feelings left.
Losing someone is painful. It hurts because you love that person. You love every bit of them. And that makes it hard. That makes it painful. That makes it like hell. My life felt like hell. I miss her too much.
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