Generally my parents didn't really visit me for some reason.
My mom got pretty mad at me and my dad was really busy with work.
My older cousins, however, did visit me. Every visiting day they could, actually. They would come flouncing in, yell "HEY KID" across the building, mess up my hair, and then throw their feet up on the desk. They are literally the most immature people I have ever met, sometimes they can be serious, but it's pretty hard on them. Tony and Dan. Dan is the oldest, and he's 28. Tony is the youngest, and he's 22. Mentally they're both about five, maybe younger. And I'm saying this with love- they both need a girlfriend. They live together in the same house and share rent, it's the weirdest thing. Most of the siblings I know would have ripped out their hair by now, but not them. They're all cool with living with each other.
When I finally got out of the hospital, I wouldn't say I felt fantastic but I felt okay. And okay was pretty good for me.
But it came really apparent that some things had changed. For instance, my dad rarely came home ever. And my mom started drinking and would get mad really easily. I'd try to get her to stop, but she wouldn't. I tried to hide the drinks but she'd find them and get super mad at me. I didn't really know what to think. Where did my happy-go-lucky mom go and the dad that was always there for me?
But then again, I know I had changed.
So I guess they had a right to change too.
But I would do anything to change them back.
I often would visit Tony and Dan when I could get out of house. I didn't tell them the change in my mom or my dad, but I think they must have silently known. I'd sit on the couch and watch reruns of spongebob with Tony and help Dan with dinner. Then I would take a bus or a cab home. Sometimes Dan would take me and we'd both sit there in front of my house watching the outline of my mother on the curtains chugging beer and he'd just look over and say, "you can come over anytime you want to." And when I'd leave the car he'd roll his window down to add, "anytime." Once more, just in case I didn't catch it, but I never did forget.