"Oh my gosh, they are so annoying!" Abigail said, leaning over the table in the small coffee shop we were meeting at. Two new girls were at our school and for some reason she really had something against them. I guess they were a bit annoying. Ginny Lynn would act like she was truly above everyone and Maddison acted like she hated everyone and everything. But I wasn't into just talking about them all the time. I would listen to Abigail though.
"Yeah," I said. "They are kind of annoying." I hadn't talked about what my feelings actually were in a while. Whenever she asked I'd just say, 'good'. Before I would have said, 'fine' and she would have figured it out. But now it was just good.
"Oh my gosh," she said with a dramatic groan. "I have to go over to their HOUSE, our moms are getting together, oh my gosh, I'm so pissed." She told me. I smiled at her sympathetically.
"I'm sorry," I said. "It'll be okay, you can text me while you're there."
I woke up and rolled out of bed, yawning as I made my way to my phone, typing a quick good morning to Abigail. No answer. I shrugged, thinking nothing of it. Probably just busy.
The day came closer and closer to ending and I slowly began to feel a bit worried. Normally we texted every day- even if when we were fighting.
Me: are you okay?? :(
I sighed and put in my headphones, turning up Of Mice & Men. I smiled to myself and then got up, gathering up my clothes. I guess I'd just take a shower while I waited. But before I could leave the room, my phone buzzed. I quickly slid the unlock.
Abigail: sorry, I left my phone in the car. I'm at GL and Maddison's house.
Ohh... Awh, she's probably not that happ-
Abigail: I feel really, really guilty. They're so nice!
My mouth kind of dried up. I shouldn't feel jealous. I shouldn't! But this wasn't really jealousy, I figured. This was more.. Fear.
Me: oh, thts cool.
Abigail: I'm not replacing you, I'm just going to hang out with them too.
So what? So freaking what?
Abigail: Im going to be strong. They gossip & I'm not going to be pulled into tht.
Abigail: I'm not going to tell about you.
Me: ok cool I'm going to get in the shower
I carried my phone into the bathroom. It buzzed in my hand but I didn't look at what it said. I turned on the shower, waiting for it to get warm and turning on Bulls In The Bronx as loud as it could go. I took off my clothes and climbed in, the hot water mixing with my freezing insides, making goose bumps on my flesh.
I curled up on the floor on the tub and started to cry.
I was scared.