I could hear Joe’s confusion over the other side of the line.
“Didn’t he tell you?” I wondered.
“Tell me what?”
”Nick broke up with me the day I left New York.” I said trying to ignore the aching feeling my heart got every time I pronounced his name.
“What? No way! Oh, man. Now I get it! He’s such a…”
“Eh?” I mumbled. He was talking to himself.
“Nick has been a mess since you left New York, I thought it was because he missed you and that he was worried about you getting that job but now I get it.”
“He’s not so into me.” I said trying to convince myself more than Joe.
“I’m not lying. He didn’t tell me a single thing! We even talked about you a few days ago.”
“A-about m-me?” I stuttered.
“Yeah… He told me he wrote another song about you.” He said with a little shyness. He shouldn’t have told me that. For the first time since I’ve last talked to a Jonas... A tear fell down my cheek. “Why did he break up with you, anyway?”
“H-he said we needed a break and didn’t give me a reason, but I-I think it was because—” I stopped talking and took a deep breath.
“Because I didn’t want to have sex with him.” I whispered as fast as I could but he caught every word and laughed. “What? I’m serious!”
“My brother is stupid for sure,” He said still giggling. “But I know him and he would never do that.”
“I thought the same way. But I’m not really sure about who he is right now.”
“Trust me.” Joe said in whisper. “I have to go, I’ll call you later.”
We hung up and I found myself crying. In that moment all I could wish was to go back to the day I met him and just walk away, because honestly, it would've saved me so much hurt and pain.
Could that be true? Was Nick that great guy I’ve always thought he was? Then… Why did he break up with me? Did he get tired of me? Why didn’t he tell his family about us breaking? What Joe said… Could it be true?
I got back to my apartment and opened the package I received from New York. There were some instructions about everything I needed to start working for Vogue.
My brother was right, if I was going to move to another country far away from my family, I needed to be sure it was because of me. Because that was what I wanted.
I read every single word that was on the letter and the little box, I looked up for papers and everything they were asking me for, called some people and got everything ready to start my new life. A life that, with or without Nick Jonas, would be amazing… Right?