We were sitting by a tree just looking at the shore when he began to tickle me. I tried to get him off of me but failed, he got me rolling down on the ground.
“Stop!” I said between laughs and gasps. “Stop it! Please!”
He finally stopped and took my hands in his to avoid my punch.
“Why did you do that?” I complained.
“Because I love your laugh.” He smiled. I couldn’t help it but smile back and took a deep breath before—
“Oh. Sorry” He said and took his phone out of his pocket. “Hello?”
I couldn’t listen to the person on the other side of the line but I could see Nick’s face going down.
“Fine. A little busy right now.” He said turning his head. I didn’t know why but I instantly felt like a bucket of cold water was thrown at me. Nick was almost talking in a whisper. “I don’t know and I don’t think this is how we should figure that out. You mind me calling you later? … Okay… Bye.”
“Who was that?” I asked trying to keep my nerves down.
“It was… Delta”
“You guys still friends?” I intuited trying to ignore the chill that covered me up.
“No, at least not now.” He stood up and handed me his hand. “I think we should go.”
We got in the car with a killing silence around us this time. I didn’t know what to say, everything seemed messed up because of his ex.
No, this wasn’t actually a mess because this wasn’t even something. He always treated me as a friend, nothing else.
So many ideas began to blow up my mind like knifes. And he just looked so concerned and worried. I just stared out of the window hoping he wouldn’t see the tear that was going down my cheek. I felt like my oxygen wasn’t enough; I knew he loved her so much that he would go back to her without even thinking.
“She apologized.” He said making me breath again. “She said it would be good to be friends.”
Every word he pronounced went directly to my heart, hurting every piece of it. And it made me think about so many things. But I couldn’t say what I was thinking either, I had to retain my words because this was NOT OF MY F*****G BUSINESS!
“You’ll never be ‘just friends’ with her, you know?” I replied with some sadness in my voice.
“Why? The fact that it didn’t work doesn’t mean you can’t be friends with that special person.”
“That’s exactly why.” I whispered with some roughness. “You can never ‘just be friends’ with somebody you used to love...simply because a little part of you will ALWAYS love them. A little part of you will ALWAYS think about that person as a special one.”
He got me to the hotel pretty soon and I couldn’t even look back at him or he would see me crying because of nothing.
“Goodnight.” I said and got out without waiting for his response.
I ran to my room and before even took my shoes off I got into the bed and fight with all in me against the tears.
I didn’t even have the right to feel sad or disappointed! I knew that. After all, he never lied to me…