38. 'Lily's Heartbreak' Closet
When Justin sings to me it's like nothing in the world matters, It's like he takes me to a world I want to get lost in.
"Okay Lily, I've been singing for hours." Starting at 'My World' and ending at 'Journals'
I smile, "You want to know my favorite song?"
He reaches over the table and holds onto both my hands, "Yeah tell me and I'll tell you." My heart is beating so fast that it will probably burst out of my body any second.
"As Long As You Love Me."
"But I thought you didn't like rap?"
"I like you." No I didn't, yes I did.
"I love you." He didn't mean to say that. My heart is clawing at my chest.
"I ment love, I'm so tired of pretending I just like you, when I really love you. Alot." It's silent and his words just lightly float around in the air like feathers. I can't. I can't say I love you back (I do). All of this I've herd before. I see the equation and the answer is 'heartbreak'. So many times my heart has been broken, too many times I've had to sweep the pieces into a room labled 'Lily's Heartbrakes'
"I'm so sorry." I say running out and letting go.