I miss him. It has been 4 days and i already miss him. That one boy who would make me feel like the only girl in the world. I miss his smile that could brighten anyone's mood. I love his hair that he spent countless time to style. I miss his hugs that brings me up when I'm down. I miss his texts saying how much he misses me when in fact we met each other the day before. I don't know how my life can go from being perfect to being a total disaster.
I was laying in my bed because i was still sick. Okay to be honest i wasn't really sick but i didn't want to meet him at school , or at least not yet. I do realize that i will have to face him sooner or later. My dad thinks I'm sick and my mother thinks I'm crazy. I don't really know which one. I feel like i have been tearing this family apart by sitting in my room all day just watching countless episodes of breakout kings or breaking bad. See the thing about watching series is the fact that you come into another world and just look at other peoples problems and then you try to convince yourself that their problem is way harder than yours. It usually feels good and that's the dangerous thing, it becomes kind of addicting.
4 days. It's been 4 days and honestly that's 4 days too long. I regret everything after i heard the real story. Harry told me that he was there to talk and we made up and were now on pretty good terms. But the thing is that i haven't been able to speak to Beth since that day. She was either avoiding me at every cost or she was skipping school. All of this is my fault. What if she has been crying to herself?
The bell started ringing and at this very moment i felt alone. A very sad feeling of loneliness like i was the only one here, that the school bell was echoing trough these lonely halls. But i snapped back to reality and gathered my books and stormed out of the classroom. I have one thing that needs to be sorted out.
I ran as long as my legs would carry me all the way to Bethany's house. What if her parents knew? No they probably don't since Bethany isn't the one to share stuff like that and especially not to her parents.
I felt brave like nothing could stop me at this very moment.
"Hello Niall , I'm so glad that you came over Bethany really needs you she has been so distant lately. Do you know why? " she asked me with a sad smile. " no Mrs. Mota" i said but i knew exactly what but i couldn't tell her just like that. She sighed and smiled at me and told me that she was upstairs.
I was laying in my bed once again finding myself scrolling down Netflix trying to find a new series. I found one and i got out of bed because i needed to go to the bathroom real quick. When i passed the hallway i heard his name. The boy who took everything and left with nothing. No , no he can't possibly be here. Why? He hates me doesn't he? I rushed into my room again and laid down on my bed.
Someone , most likely the one and only Niall Horan walked into my room and shut the door. " Hi " he said while staring down at his fingers that were playing with his plain t-shirt. " What? " i asked him coldly " Why are you here? " i asked him again and he looked ashamed. " B-Bethany i didn't mean to " he told me and i actually wanted to believe him but me being stupid and trying not to give in because if i do then that means that I've lost. " I-I'm so sorry , i never meant for that to happen and you know that " he told me with hope in his voice. " Apparently not , why would you scream such things at me? " i asked him and my eyes were starting to tear up. I was trying to hold it in like i would usually do but it was almost impossible. For you i might seem like a drama queen which is true but he really hurt me and especially when he broke up with me and the fact that he doesn't trust me is quite sad too.
" Please Bethany be my girlfriend again and let's pretend that this never happened i love you too much to let you go" he told me and i almost gave in , almost. I want him to fight for it and i also want him to know that I'm not gonna let him treat me this way. Never. " Tell me why i would take you back , what's so special about me anyways? " i asked him and he looked at me with his big blue icy eyes.
" i uh " he started stuttering and it felt horrible because here he is wanting me to accept his apology and act like it never happened and he can't even say anything good or at least positive thing about me , and us.
" You know what? i regret ever falling in love with you " I told him and he looked chocked and believe me so was i. I never though that i would be able to tell him that now that all of this was happening.
" You know what Beth? I don't regret our late nights talking on the phone about everything but at the same time nothing. I don't regret loving you , letting you in or taking control of me but that's love, not being afraid and trusting each other and i know that it sounds weird coming from me and all but i really do love you" he told me and i couldn't be more happier. I stood up and ran up to him and gave him a massive hug and a big kiss on the cheek. " That's all i really wanted to hear, i love you Niall James Horan" i told him while looking into his beautiful eyes. " I love you too Bethany Noel Mota" he told me and kissed me.