"I'll see you later, hope everything goes okay. Ring and keep me updated okay?" I said to Amanda and Johnny as they were getting in the car to go to hospital.
"Of course we will and don't worry everything will be fine." Johnny smiled climbing in.
"I love you and Johnny is going to stay in with me tonight so we'll see you tomorrow I promise." Amanda told me with a hug.
"I love you to, see you tomorrow." I replied with a fake smile trying to keep positive.
I waved them off before walking back in the now eerily quite house, I guess I'll have to get used to being here alone now Amanda's treatments will become more frequent and the boys aren't home for over a week and even when they do get back they're all be going back home till new years. God I miss them so much... To think only a few month ago I thought they were the worst people alive and know they're pretty much family to me. Italy is an hour ahead so its 9.00 am for them right now, maybe I could call Niall.
"Ring Ring Ring Ring Ring Ring Ring. Sorry the person you are trying to contact is unavailable at the moment please leave a mess-" Redial.
Unable to get through to Niall after several attempts and coming to the conclusion he was probably still asleep I made my way up to my room.
I as passed the mirror in the hall way I had to do a double take barely recognising myself. My hair was a tangled mess that I'd just collected and thrown into what I think was meant to be a pony tail, I had dark circles round my bloodshot eyes, my skin was pail to the point where it looked like I was the ill one not Amanda. Even my lips were chapped due to me nervously biting them and then there was what I was wearing!
Seriously I looked homeless zombie. I was in an oversized plain white top which had small stains all over and a pair of black leggings that had holes in after I caught them on something before bed and couldn't be bothered to change them. I had then topped off my 'outfit' with odd fluffy socks that were now dirty from walking outside in them.
I stood there staring at myself for a long time just disgusted with how much I had let this effect me. Thats it, I'm going to clean myself up, have a better outlook on this and be optimistic about Amanda as I knew she was going to fight this it was just a long process and I probably wasn't making it any easier for her by moping around. First things first a shower.
After I was completely clean from head to toe I got dressed in to a pair of super skinny deep blue jeans and a white knit jumper, I then put on my dream catcher necklace as well as my locket, Luke's bracelet and my tour pandora bracelet. I styled my hair in a loose braid that came over my left shoulder and finished with some lip gloss. Ahh thats better, now I don't look a complete mess!
Right next step clean my room. I got rid off all the empty cups, bowls and plates from the various meals I'd had up hear and started putting my clothes either away if they were clean, in the wash if they were dirty or in the bin if they were beyond help. After making my bed and just generally putting stuff away within the hour my room was spotless.
Last step cheer myself up. Hmmm how to cheer myself up...
"HEY NIALL!" I yelled happy to hear from him. Wow timing, a call from him always cheers me up.
"Hi? You sound cheery?" He questioned.
"Yeah I am actually, I kinda decided this morning that I need to stop moping about. Amanda is going through this and I should be being optimistic and supportive not making her feel worse."
"Well I'm glad to hear that. So what you up to today?"
"Nothing really I was going to do some work, make sure all your updates from the show went smoothly and do some editing of the stuff you guys sent me."
"No no no no no don't do that!"
"It's just... well everything updated properly and we uploaded some stuff so everything is on track with that so you shouldn't be worrying about work!"
"Niall you're making me worry. I'm going to check." I said loading up the website on my mac not really ready for the things I saw...
The last thing to be uploaded was a video of the guys fro last night, pressing play I on it I saw the five of them sat on a sofa clearly backstage of last nights show looking really upset and it was clear they had been crying or were trying not to cry.
"Hi guys, we've got to tell you something and we don't want any hate or negativity about this but we need to tell you all." Li said.
"So as most of you will probably know I was unable to finish tonights show and we had to end it early which I am truly sorry for guys and I know I let you all down but somebody very close to us is going something at the moment that has effected us all." Ni then said then had to take a pause before continuing "Emi left our tour 5 days ago to go home to her family as her mother is very ill." His said with his voice cracking towards the end.
"This means that all our love is with Emi and her family and we're praying for Amanda. Because of this we haven't really been able to focus and we haven't been the same since she left. Emi is like family to us all, just as you guys are but she is almost the sixth member of our band and the tenth member of group with the 5SOS guys." Harry spoke but had to stop as a sob left his mouth.
"We hope you understand and will be nothing but supportive towards her and her family and will understand if we aren't ourselves at the moment." Lou took over for him. "We will be going through with out next show before christmas but Emi won't be the only member missing for it."
"I don't feel like I can go through with it and don't want a replete of tonight to happen on sunday so I won't be performing on sunday I'm very sorry to tell you. This is entirely my decision and nobody else had anything to do with it." Niall then said and it was clear by his facial expressions he was on the brink of tears.
"Thank you for your support and we will continue to keep you posted and we're sure after we've had some time to get ourselves together things will go back to normal." Zayn said before they all waved and the video finished. I read through some of the comments most of which were along the lines of 'Pray for Amanda' , 'Stay strong' , 'We miss you Emi' , 'Emi is the sixth member!' , 'Think positive' and all really lovely things that slowly started to fix my breaking heart. I'd been so down lately this really was the boost I needed knowing I had the support of all their fans and that they weren't blaming me for what's going on really brought a smile to my face.
"Emi you still there?" Nialls voice shocked me as I had forgot I was still on the phone to him.
"I'm guessing you watched the video?"
"... Yeah thank you. Could you really not finish yesterdays show?"
"No, I just couldn't sing, if you don't believe me its all over the internet and theres a lot of fan videos of the event."
"I'm sure there is." I laughed a little. "So what are you doing instead of sundays show?"
"Well I was hoping you would answer the door so I could spend the time with you."
"Answer the door?" What is he on about?
I ran down the stairs to open the door to see Niall stood there. I hung up my phone and stared at him in shock.
"Surprise?" I laughed as she just stood there starring at me in shock.
"You can say that again. What are you doing here?" She she in muffled screams as she attacked me in a hug.
"Haha well like I said in the video I just couldn't go through with tomorrows show and I was a mess with out you if I'm honest."
"Really?" She said pulling back and looking me dead in the eyes.
"Yeah... Emi can I tell you something?" Right this is, it's now or never!
"Of course you can but do you want to come in first?" She smiled.
"Oh yeah, sorry."
"Its fine just put your bags in the living room. Do you want anything to eat or drink?"
"No I'm okay thanks."
"Really? Wow this must be serious if you don't want food." She laughed sitting down on the sofa next to me. I really have missed that adorable giggle and her little jokes.
"Not serious just I need to tell you this or I'll just back down and get to nervous."
"Why? What it is?" She asked bringing her feet up so she could sit facing me.
"Emi you know we've been on a few dates and were really close?"
"Yeah." she smiled tipping her head to the side a little like.
"Well I was kinda wanted to ask you if you wanted... to be my girlfriend?" I said looking down fearing rejection but a tiny soft hand under my chin and brought my face up to look at her.
"I'd love to be you're girlfriend." She replied softly.
"Yeah, no need to sound so shocked about it!"
"I just thought you'd say no, I didn't think you felt the same way about me a I do you."
"Niall I love you."
Wait did I just hear that right? She loves me? She actually feels the same way I do? This has never happened before! Oh my God Emily Woodson, girl of my dreams is in love with me!
"Niall please say something..."
"I love you to Emi." I said leaning in to kiss her and the moment I did there where those fireworks again but this time they were more intense. This time it was filled with love and this time it was with my gorgeous girlfriend. Man how long I had waited for this moment and now its here its better than I could have ever imagined.