Sorry I haven't written to you in a while. I haven't said loads in ages so I'll start with Saturday a month ago. I went to the park with Jake and gave him his watch back. It turned out he had lost his mother. I told him about you, and Digbee and my music. He said he played the guitar and sang too! He invited me over afterwards and taught me a few pieces. And guess what?! I'm a 'natural' according to Jake. I was starting to get the feeling that I was in love with him. I know, I know. I'm definitely not that sort of person, but I guess I am? I could feel something when he held me with the guitar. I sound ridiculous! Jake smiled a lot and I thought he would just maybe like me back. Until I saw Sarah. Sarah's Jake's girlfriend. I sighed and said I had to go home.
Some weeks past and I kept seeing Jake. People teased and bullied me at school saying stuff like "You depressed git!" But I just ignored them and thought about Jake. My crush had died down and I accepted that we were just friends.I helped Jake with his problems and he helped me. Sarah was really ill and suffering from lung cancer. I kept telling him to have hope and let him cry on my shoulder a lot. Eventually, it wasn't ok. Sarah died in her sleep and Jake was in pieces. I walked into his house one day as he left his phone at my house. He had a knife in his hand and was trying to cut his wrist. I ran and grabbed it off him. I didn't tell his mother but I hugged him and told him it would be alright. I lay him down on a couch and stroked his head. He put his hand on my lap and whispered "Thank you". I left and made him swear his wouldn't try to commit suicide EVER again. I hugged him again. I enjoyed our hugs because they were true. Not baby 'Omg lets hug' hugs but a true, deep hug.
I feel sorry for him, with my heart. I know how it feels to lose someone you love. So that's what's happened- loads. I'm going to the park with him and Digbee on Sunday and I brought a present just to lighten his spirits, a silver watch and a syrup coloured bear. I hope he likes it.