I woke up in the middle of the night crying, I just think that there is no point whit life anymore. I started to look in my box of blades and knives. I took my blade and started cutting on my arm and after that I started to cut on my thighs, it started to get blood everywhere but I didn't care. Nobody likes me, they just think I'm a loser and a geek. Personally I think I'm fat and ugly but really I'm not that fat I'm just insecure.
Just the other weekend I got contacts and got my braces off and I feelless pretty but that's just me. I was always made fun of because I hadglasses and braces so I thought that they would stop if I changed my look and got rid of the braces and the glasses.
But I couldn't take it anymore so I got up and put on some black jeans and a white V-neck T-shirt.
I went out to get some air, but I stopped on a bridge. I looked down at the water. I got up on the railing and just looked down for a long time,then I started to cry. It was really dark outside so I couldn't see muchbut I heard a voice.
Voice - Don't do it.
Me- Why you don't know me?
Voice - I know that everyone deserves a happy life and you are notgoing to get a happy life if you jump beautiful.
Did he just call me beautiful? I don't know but his voice got me really calm. I don't even know I started to listen to him in the first place. He doesn't know how my life is, he doesn't know what I been through.
Me - I'm not beautiful so don't say that, you can't even see my face, it's too dark!
Voice - what your favorite song?
What? why did he ask me that right now? But I didn't care so Ianswered him whit a quick answer.
- ehhm I like Never Let You Go by Justin Bieber.
- ehm okey i can do that. He said whit a neveous voice.
But when he started to sing i just looked at him like he was an angel.
They say that hate has been sent
So let loose the talk of love
Before they outlaw the kiss
Baby, give me one last hug
There's a dream that I've been chasing
Want so badly for it to be reality
And when you hold my hand then I understand
That it's meant to be 'cause, baby, when you're with me
It's like an angel came by and took me to heaven
Like you took me to heaven, girl
'Cause when I stare in your eyes it couldn't be better
I don't want you to go, oh no, so
Let the music blast, we gon' do our dance
Bring the doubters on, they don't matter at all
'Cause this life's too long and this love's too strong
So baby, know for sure that I'll never let you go
I got my favorite girl
Not feeling no pain, no fear
Don't have a care in the world
Why would I when you are here?
He took my hand and carried me of the railing, he was still singing. It was like I was under his spell.
Voice - What's you name beautiful?
Me- I'm Madison, but you can call me Madi.
Voice - okey Madi, do you want me to drive you home or?
I forgot to tell you guys something. My dad rapes me and treats me like his dog or something. So I can't go home. But I'm too afraid to ask him.
I looked down at the ground so he couldn't see my tears.
Voice - Or do you want me to drive you at my place so we could talk?
Me - yeah I would like that if it's not a problem?
Justin - of course not common' let's get a taxi.
He took his warm hand and grabbed mine and waved at a taxi.
Voice - Do you want to talk about it ?