when both of us stopped talking it was dead silent ,all i could hear is our breathing we both starred into each others eyes and leaned in and finally for the first time our lips connected making fireworks blow everywhere
time went still. as our lips touched as he pulled me closer to his chest, i could hear my heart beating hard and fast against his chest .a kiss so passionate and yet so innocent. i was determind to grasp this memory . this one i would never forget.
i wanted to pull away but i just couldn't , i felt like if my lips are glued with glue gun to his' after some minutes when finally his lips was away from mine i took a huge shaky breath and smiled , james giggled and smiled innocently at me " see you later " he said giving me a quick kiss on my lips and leaving , i just stood there replaying that wonderful moment inside my head like if its a part in the movie that i like .
i was still standing outside in-front of the door , i put my hand on the door's knob and was about to open it , but someone did from the other side , pulling me cause i was still holding the door's knob when i locked up , i saw angry dad looking down , my smile soon faded when i remembered earlier ,
" WHERE WERE YOU ?? I WAS WORRIED !! " he yelled angrily , i didn't dare to answer him
i just looked up at him tears filling y eyes , dad rolled his eyes and waved his hand for me to go inside
i did and ran to my room , i started crying harder laying on my back and looking up at the white ceiling ,
what did i do ? , and why the fuck did jack tell dad , it is not his problems they are mine and i can solve them by myself and dad is not supposed to be mad at me, he doesn't have the rights to, i didn't do anything wrong anyway
i cried harder thinking about it , if my mum was here now, she wouldn't be mad at me or zayn she would understand by something called LISTENING , but my dad doesn't want to listen to me so why would i blow my brain with thoughts if i can just take them out i can't take them to him cause if i did i would start shouting and i don't want that , cause he'll be angrier at me more than now
i hear the door of my room open and foot steps then i felt the bed go down , i cant look up but i know it's dad , after all i said , well thought i know he is so kind , if he was mad at me he comes and apologize i do too but if i didnt he does if he didnt i do , so ya its kinda like a friendship circle between us
"len , i know your awake look at me love " my dad said shaking me , i sat up straight looking him in the eye , dad doesn't like to see me cry and i hate it when he is mad at me or when he is yelling at me
"len please dont cry , i just got mad of what your friend did and i dont like that , i know i should not be mad at you i should at him , but i am really sad that you didn't tell me , i thought you tell me everything " he said whipping away the tears that were sliding down my face
" da-d-d is all of this j-j-just b-because i didnt tell you ?" i said confused
" no not only because of that , you know i dont like you getting hurt and ya i am sad cause you didnt tell me " he said looking down , a small smile formed on my lips , i like it when my dad looks down it makes me feel i dont know special , some other dads would probably ignore you for forever , but my dad is all like my cool teenager friend , my dad isn't that old , i think he is 34 , he is young for having 3 children
"dad" i said a bit louder , he looked up at me " ya ?"
" i am sorry " i said pulling a you can call it a serious puppy face , and he smiles
" i am sorry too , but can you please tell me why did zayn rape you ?" he said and i looked up at him with wide eyes