Louis was 25 when the doctor told him his heart wasn't working properly. The news devastated Louis and Harry, but specially Harry. He couldn't understand why this was happening to Louis, to his Louis. In Harry's mind Louis was the sweetest person alive; he just couldn't understand why this was happening to Louis. Harry tried to be strong for him; he tried to be the person who cheer Louis when he was down.
Six months later Louis had a car accident where he hit his head really bad and he almost die. Harry felt guilty because he couldn't go with Louis to his doctor appointment since he had to work that afternoon. Harry went to the hospital as soon as the hospital called him. When he got there he wanted to see Louis; he wanted to hug him and promise him that everything was going to be okay. But that's not how things work out.
"I need to see him." Harry said to Louis' doctor.
"I know you do, I've been there with you two through along the way. I know what Louis means to you but ..."
"But what?" Harry interrupted him. "Why can't I see Louis?"
"Harry." The doctor took a deep breath before saying what he though were the hardest words he could ever said in his career. "Louis lost his memory."
"What?" Harry cried out. "Please don't ..... I'm begging you." Harry put his face on his hands.
"I'm begging you." He kept repeating. "Tell me this is a dream.... please tell me that Louis is okay and we can go home."
"I'm so sorry Harry." The doctor said; trying to comfort the man. "We need to contact Louis' family ...."
"I'm his family! I'm his fucking husband!" Harry screamed at him.
"I know Harry." The doctor gave him a half smile. "But Louis doesn't remember that, Louis doesn't remember anything."
"So how his family can help him but I can't?" Harry asked confused.
"I didn't say you can't help him." The doctor sighed. "It's just ..... if Louis gets too much information at once he can get confused and his mind can refuse to remember."
"Will he ever get his memory back?" Harry asked hoping for the best but expecting the worst.
"We still need to run few more tests on him to know that." He sighed. "But what we know so far is that if he doesn't get a heart transplant he can die at any second."
"Why him?" Harry asked heartbroken.
"I'm so sorry Harry." The doctor said; in his opinion this is the worst part of his job. He always wanted to be a doctor to save life, but it hit him really hard when he couldn't.
Louis' family came to hospital an hour later. Jay was destroyed to see Harry like this; she was devastated to see his son and his husband in that situation. The doctor did a few more test on Louis and he found the cause of Louis' amnesia.
"Louis Tomlinson's family." The nurse said; making Harry, Jay, and Louis' sisters to stand up. "The doctor wants to see you in his office."
They made their way to the small office at the end of the hallway. The door was already open so they just walked in. The doctor gave them a half smile and invited them take a sit.
"Well, we run a few test on Louis and he found out the cause of his amnesia." He stopped as he took a deep breath. "The part of the brain that holds the person's memory is a very important and delicate part. Unfortunately Louis hurt that part of his brain to the point that all his memories were erase." He swallowed hard. "He damaged the part of his brain to the point where he will never remember anything about his life before the accident."
"Never?" Jay asked in shock.
"Never." The doctor sighs.
"Does this mean he will never remember what he does?" Harry asked heartbroken.
"We will have to test that tomorrow."
The next day doctor Marshell went to Louis' room.
"Hi Louis." He greet as he opened the door.
"Hello Dr. Marshall." Louis smiled.
"How are you?" The doctor tried to keep the conversation.
"I'm good; well a little bit sad because my family haven't come to visit me." He sighed.
"Do you remember your family?" The doctor asked excited.
"No." Louis shook his head. "But I guess I have one." He said; playing with his wedding ring.
"Yes you do." The doctor smiled. "But they can't visit you just yet."
"Why not?" He asked like when a child asked his mum why she can't buy him a candy bar on the grocery store.
"Because we need to run more tests on you." The doctor lied. "But as soon as we finish your family will be here in your room."
"Are they here in the hospital?"
"Yes." The doctor whispered.
"When am I going to be able to see them?"
"This afternoon." He smiled. "Before visiting hours end."
"Thank you." Louis smiled at him.
"You're welcome." The doctor said; trying to control the tear. Louis was thanking him for something he didn't do and that was eating him alive. "I'll come back later."
Louis nodded as Dr. Marshell made his way out of Louis' room. Dr. Marshell met with Harry, Jay and Louis' sister on his office to talk about Louis. They agreed that they can visit him but they can't push him to remember or force him to. After talking to Dr. Marshell for a few minutes they made their way to Louis' room. Jay entered first.
"Hi Louis." Jay said; trying to hold back the tears on her eyes. "I'm your mum." She said; walking to his bed.
"Hi." Louis smiled.
Lottie, Fizzy, Daysi, Pheone and Harry made their way inside. Louis smiled at them but when he saw Harry he was surprised.
"Where's my wife?" Louis whispered.
Harry fake a smile as he make his way out of Louis room. Jay walked after him.
"Harry!" Jay tried to stop him."Harry please!"
"He doesn't remember me, Jay." Harry cried. "And the worst thing is that he thinks he has a fucking wife."
"Harry." Jay hugged him. "I'm so sorry." Jay wrapped her arms around him tighter.
"I'm sorry Jay." Harry whispered. "I shouldn't ...."
"Hey!" Jay interrupted him. "It's okay not to be okay. I'm not judging you, his your husband for God sake."
"I'm sorry." Harry repeated. "Let's go back inside."
Harry and Jay walked back inside Louis' room who was confused when they got in.
"Are you okay mate?" Louis asked; looking at Harry.
"Yeah." He faked a smile. "How are you?"
"I'm okay; I guess." Louis smiled and Harry's heart swelled with adoration. "Who are you?"
"Hes' your ...."
"I'm your best mate." Harry lied; interrupting Jay. "Since we were little kids." and he wasn't lying, Louis and him were best friend since they were in kindergarten.
"Awesome." Louis smiled from ear to ear. "So you're my mum and all of you are sister."
"Yes." Daysi said; stroking Louis' hand. "And it sucks that you don't remember us." She frowns.
"I'm sorry." Louis apologized.
"Daysi!" Jay said.
"It's okay, you will remember us eventually." Harry lied.
All afternoon was like that; Jay and the girls told Louis about his life. It was hard to hide that Harry was his husband but they pulled it off. The next day Dr. Marshell talked to Harry and Jay about Louis' heart. It was devastated for Jay and Harry to hear him saying that Louis could die at any second. That was when Harry decided to give Louis the most important and meaningful gift of his life.
"Are you sure about this?" Jay asked him. "It's not just ...."
"Jay, I'm 100% sure." Harry smiled at her. "I love him so much." He sighed. "And beside he's just going to have something that belong to him since the day I met him."
Jay just looked at him; her heart swelled with pride. "It's a shame you know ..."
"It's okay Jay." Harry smiled again. "I love him so much and I would anything for him."
"Why it had to be this way?" Jay cried out.
"I don't know but don't worry everything will be okay. He will be okay." Harry hugged her. "Oh and if by any chance." Harry took out a white envelope with Louis' name written on it. "He remembers me, can you give this to him please?"
"Of course." Jay said; getting the envelope.
"Are you ready Mr. Tomlinson?" The nurse asked as other nurse came into the room.
"Yes." He smiled.
When Louis woke from the anesthesia he noticed that the curly haired lad wasn't at his room. He saw his mum and his sister, but Harry wasn't anywhere to be found. Jay looked at him and smiled.
"Hi honey." She greeted him.
"Hi mum." He said; rubbing his head. "Where is Harry?"
"He's gone. " Jay faked a smile.
"He left without saying goodbye." Louis whispered in a sad tone.
"When people leave without saying goodbye is because they're not gone forever." Jay said; placing her hand on Louis' chest; on his heart to be specific.
It's been 5 years since Louis got a heart transplant from an anonymous donor, well it was an anonymous donor for him because Jay knew the person since the person was a little kid. Louis never saw Harry again and that made him sad because when they met at the hospital he told him they were best mate. Sometimes when he sleeps he dreams about Harry and him. In his dream they're dating and they plan their wedding. It's weird because it seems that every night Louis dreams about it and his dream continue from where it stopped the night before. He decided to talk to his mum about it and Jay just gave him the white envelope that Harry gave to her. He looked at her confused but open the envelope anyways.
Dear Love Of My Life,
Hopefully you can understand my crappy handwriting. I just want to tell you that I love you and that you deserve to be happy. Weather is with me or without me. God Louis, I want you to be happy no matter what.
You're my sunshine. You make my world so bright. I'm going to miss you when I go but I promise you everything will be alright.
I wish you could remember when we first met. We almost ran into each other and bumped our heads. I said "Oops" and you said "Hi". We didn't know then that one of us had to die. I remember when we found out that your heart wasn't working properly. We didn't know this would happen, we thought everything would be okay. But the doctor said things weren't getting better and then you had the accident. That's why I'm writing you this letter.
It hit me so hard when you didn't remember me; it was the worst feeling ever. When the doctor told me you aren't going to remember anything about you life it killed me. It killed me when you called me "mate." It killed me when you asked for your wife when you had your husband in front of you, but I can't blame you for that. It's not your fault that you don't remember.
I can sit here and lie to you writing that I could live this life with you thinking that I'm your best friend, but I won't. I can't live in a world where I used to live my life with the love of my life. I can't live in a world that constantly reminds me of what we used to have. So I decided to give you my heart because it's rightfully yours since ever I laid eyes on you; it's always been yours. I don't want you to be sad; I want you to experience life. Do all the things you've ever wanted as if I was right by your side. I'll be there with you in more than spirit, it'll be me when your heart beats, you will be able to feel it.
It's almost time, the surgery is soon so I think it time to say that I love you more than words can say. I can't wait to see you in heaven one day.
This is my act of true love and everything I'm asking in return is for you to be happy and live life. Don't ever think you're alone; I'm going to be with you. I'll be always in your heart.
Yours sincerely, Harry.
After reading that letter Louis finally understood what his mum told him 5 years ago.
"When people leave without saying goodbye is because they're not gone forever."
OH DEAR LORD WHAT HAVE I DONE!?!?!?
You'll have to deal with me right now because it's the 3 anniversary of "Always in my hear @Harry_Styles. Yours sincerely, Louis" tweet! I swear to you my feels are all over the place and I can't even right now *cries* I'm sorry if I made you cried :/ Let me know what you think on the comment section below (I'm ready for you to tell me how evil I am xD) Love you guys from the bottom of my Larry heart.
"Fate took soul mates to a whole new level with Harry and Louis"