I admit it! I was glad after two beer and life seemed so much simpler. I became more brave and I dropped Nialls hand. I ended up next to Perrie and we sat and laughed at bad jokes. She seemed to be quite okay, although her choice of words wasn't always the best.
"You should be with the gang." she said, actually, I felt proud. I laughed a little bit and saw that she was serious.
"I'm not like you." I answered honestly. "I try to take care of me."
She smiled and shook her head quickly.
"No, you don't fit in like a regular old girl. I would like make you wear make up. Can I?"
I was surprised.
Perrie nodded. She was quick and went away after her bag. She picked up a ton of makeup and got started right away to change my face. I felt brushes against my cheek and she put some energy into my face. Niall showed up and I saw that he was startled.
"Damn, you're good-looking?" he exclaimed, grinning slightly. "Talk about that Perrie can change someone?"
"So I'm ugly otherwise?"
He shook the head quickly and sat down beside me.
"You're not ugly, but you look so plain out."
"How do you mean?"
"You look like one of those boring girl and actually it fit you to be more funny."
Perrie agreed and put lip gloss on my lips.
"You look like a model now."
I smiled and blushed under all layers with makeup.
"Are you serious?"
Perrie finished the job and nodded at me.
"Yes, damn you look like one of those in the papers."
Louis looked at me and he seemed to like my face.
"She's like a model!"
Perrie laughed and gave him a quick glance.
"You don't even see a difference between a fucking dog and cat."
He snorted in response, but didn't stop staring at me. I became curious.
She grinned and took out a mirror. I was surprised when I saw my face. I saw a different nice face, I looked more adult from what I was. Niall was amused by my reaction and leaned slightly toward me.
"You looking good!"
I bumped into him.
"You say that to all the girls?"
Niall shook his head and he became more serious. He didn't released me with his eyes and I felt how he got my stomach tingle.
"No Hope" he whispered. "I'm not like that. I only give praise when I feel the need or when I really mean it."
I looked at him and our eyes met.
"So I need it?"
He shook his head.
"No, this time I mean it!"
I blushed and for the first time in my life, I noticed that he had wonderful blue eyes. His face was really sweet and he had a wonderful smile. I saw a regular guy who could actually be more than just a problem child.
"So you aren't ashamed of me?"
"No, I have never been ashamed of you."
Perrie picked her stuff up and vanished away. I couldn't let go of Niall with my eyes and I realized that he didn't hated me.
"Why were you so mean to me, to Bobby and to mom?"
Niall blushed slightly and looked down at his hands.
"Because you were always perfect and everyone looked down on me. Dad treated you more like his daughter and me he didn't want to know about. I was jealous."
"If you don't give him anything, he doesn't give you anything."
Niall groaned lightly.
"I know, but I get so angry when I see him. He and mom fought for a year before he left her. I was so angry when he met your mom and left my mother alone. I thought all along that he would go back to her, but he didn't. "
"So you hate my mom?"
Niall shook the head quickly.
"No, I hate being in the middle between two homes. Daddy has a new perfect family and mom struggling to get ahead."
I took my arm around his shoulders and leaned slightly toward him.
"Why don't you tell that to Bobby? He's talking about you, when you are away and they are arguing about what's good for you. It's me that they forget."
Niall looked at me in surprise.
"What's he saying?"
"That he wants your best and he doesn't want you to misalign. He wants you to be home more and he wants to really get to know you again."
Niall smiled faintly and he seemed to be a little happy.
"So he's not saying that I'm crap all the time?"
I shook my head.
"He loves you."
Niall seemed to listen to me and I saw a sliver of hope in his eyes. He smiled faintly and then he looked down at the floor again.
"I'm sorry I wasn't honest and that you thought I hated you."
I smiled and gave him a light kiss on the cheek.
"It's okay, but take the time and tell him how you feel. I'm sure he will understand."
Niall gulped and nodded.
"He's a good dad?"
"He's wonderful and I wish he was my biological father."
"Okay, maybe not, but it would be an honor to be his daughter?"
Niall looked at me again and he smiled rather sheepishly. I saw a change in his face and I liked it. He didn't look hard, but he looked smooth and normal
"Hope? I'm glad dad chose your mom. I'm glad he fights with me and I'm glad he loves you, as if you were his daughter."
I giggled and drank more beer.
"Shall we change the subject?"
He laughed a little bit and nodded.
"Okay, and you still look like a model."
Liam put on music and everyone was in a good mood. It was as if everyone just talked on and nobody cared about tomorrow. Right as it was pulled Harry me down on his lap and he held nearly fixed me.
"Do you have a boyfriend?"
Harry grinned and let one hand slide up at my back.
"Would you like to be my girlfriend?"
I immediately felt an arm that pulled me away from him and I noted that it was Niall.
"She doesn't want to be your girlfriend."
Harry grinned and let me not go with his eyes.
"Can 't she say that?"
Niall pulled me away to the door.
"Hope, they fuck all the girls so didn't end up together with them in a room."
I grinned and followed him out.
"I might want him?"
Niall gave me a cold look.
"Believe me! You don't wanna hang with Harry, Louis or the other. They are dangerous to a nice girls."
He stopped in front of some bushes and made sure I stayed still beside him. He pulled down his fly and began to urinate. I blushed and happened to catch sight of his member. I wanted to say something, but Niall had time to note my reaction.
"Haven't you seen a cock before?"
Niall grinning and laughing at the same time.
"Why am I not surprised?"
I peered curiously down at it and realized that the beer affected my sanity.
"No, it's not big."
I swallowed and was disappointed when he put it back in again.
"I wanted to see!"
He blushed even more.
"I'm your so called brother. You don't stare at siblings' dicks?"
"I'm not your sister. Your dad is with my mother, that's all."
Niall stood and just smiled at me.
"You are different when you have drunk some beer? I like it!"
I giggled and couldn't drop his trousers with my eyes.
Niall giggled and stood closer to me.
"Maybe you'll see it one day, but right now it just feels awkward."
"And you say I'm boring?"
Niall grabbed my hand and held it against his member. He did so my hand stroking his pants and he moaned lightly.
I looked straight into his eyes and when he released my hand, I continued. I felt it was numb and I felt that he had boner. Niall groaned lightly.
I swallowed and smiled at him.
"You want me to change and right now I'm doing things I've never done before."
Niall pulled my hand away.
"Come on!" he whispered hoarsely. "Tomorrow you'll be glad you didn't do more. Don't do anything stupid when you have poured some beer."
We fell silent and just stared straight into each other's eyes. My whole body felt different and I just wanted to throw myself over him. There was something about Niall that attracted me and I loved the feeling I had. Niall whimpered and finally he took my face between his hands.
"Stop it!" almost he hissed. "Stop doing what you're doing to me."
"What do I do?"
"You make me feel feelings for you, that I shouldn't have."
"Is it wrong or dangerous?"
"Hope, I'm dangerous. You should stay away from me."
"But it was you who wanted me to be with you?"
Our lips met and I felt Niall kissed me. I was inexperienced, but I tried to answer the kiss. He moaned and he didn't let go of my face. I felt his tongue slide in between my lips and it was as if he wanted to eat me.
Niall ended the kiss and let my face go. He was red in the face and he seemed unsure.
"Just stop it!"
I didn't care. I took my arms around his neck and threw me over him. I kissed him, and right away we were intense. I felt how he pushed me up against a tree and I felt his tongue against mine. I moaned and he quickly lifted me up. I took my legs around his waist and I felt him pressed himself hard up against me. He rubbed his hard member between my legs and I instantly felt a tingling throughout the body. It was as if we wanted to go all the way, but no one took the plunge to pursue it. I whimpered and I wouldn't let him go away. We moaned and we were like mad. I was prepared for anything, but was disappointed when we heard Harry's voice.
"Come on!" he shouted from the cottage. "We're going home now. Shall you stay or go with us?"
Niall released me and he seemed more uncertain than ever. He just took my hand and pulled me towards the cars. He said nothing more to me that night.