I woke up to the sound of banging from upstairs. That's normally how I wake up these days...with the sound of a mad father and a crying mom. I miss the days when it wasn't like that. When we were a big happy family. I guess ever good thing has too come too an end. My happy family came to an end when I was ten. When I was ten both my parents starting drinking. Normally It's just the dad, or just the mom who drinks, well not my parents. These days they have been fighting all most every day.
It's the same fight all the time. Mom says they should stop, then dad says he doesn't want too....
I watched my mother walk down stairs. She was limping this time.
I ignored her wipe the tear from her eyes "What are YOU looking at?" she snapped
I shook my head, then she gave me a dirty look and walking into the bathroom.
Looks like I fell asleep on the couch again. I'v been doing that since I started this new book. It's a romance novel. I read these in NV. All the girls in these books are all cute, and social, and friendly, and skinny, well that's not me. I walked upstairs and into my room, I grabbed the nearest T-shirt there was, and some skinny jeans. I don't even know why I bother with skinny jeans though, It's not like it's gonna change anything about that fact that I'm not skinny. I then grabbed a towel and walking into the bathroom. I turned on the shower and waited for it to be the right temperature, I avoided my reflection in the mirror. I hate the way I look, the way I talk, then way I dress, the way I eat, the way I act. I know I shouldn't think this though, but I do.
I guess It's mainly because my parents have been telling me that I'm not pretty since they started drinking.
I got in the shower and put shampoo in my gross blonde hair and rinsed.
Once I was finished with my shower I put on a light blue T-shirt and some skinny jeans.
I walked out of the bathroom fully dressed, and with a towel in my hair. I walked into my room and found my dad sitting on my bed.
"Uhh hi" I said shyly
I'm kinda super scared of him. He gave me a angry look.
"Dad...?" I asked
"don't 'dad' me!" He yelled
"What are you-"
"I KNOW WHAT YOU DID AND IT'S SICK! IT'S SICK AS HELL!"
I looked at him confused. I don't remember doing anything I'm not so post to...I'm way too scared to even say hi to my parents so why would I do that?
I wanted to tell him that but I was too afraid
"HELLO! DON'T IGNORE ME YOUNG LADY!" he yelled
"Dad I didn't do any-"
"But I'm not lying" I said
"mom said you hide the wine is this true?" he asked sternly
I think I understand what's happening. Mom is the one who wants to quit drinking, but dad won't let her. So, she hid the wine, and said I did so she wouldn't get in trouble. She does this all the time. She blames me for things she did. Then I get punished. I know it's not right. I know I should probably tell someone, but I'm too scared too.
My mom walked in
"what's going on?" she asked both of us
"Your daughter is lying to me...unless you lied too me" he said looking at mom
"no never" she said
my mom has light blonde hair and a very pretty face...sadly I didn't get her looks. She took acting school all her life.
"are you sure?" dad asked
Dad had a narrow face with darker hair. Mom manipulated him way too much. But in return he always beats her soo...
"Yes" she said nodding, then she turned to me "Addison why don't you tell your father the truth?" she asked
"I AM! I DIDN'T DO ANYTHING!" I yelled
I covered my mouth as soon as I said it.
dad slapped my face with his hand. It wasn't the first time though. This is why I avoid yelling at him.
I guess my mom just expects me too cover for her like I always do.
"I'm gonna ask you one more time...DID YOU HIDE MY WINE?!" He yelled again
"dad I didn't-"
He punched me in the stomach. I crouched over in pain, holding my stomach. It felt like millions of weights were pounding me to the floor.
Mom just stood there shaking her head with her arms crossed
"Tell me the truth!" he yelled
"If I say the truth I get hurt, and if I lie I get hurt" I said
He grabbed the nearest belt and held it up "NO! PLEASE! NO!" I yelled
The belt hurt the most..more then hitting..more then punching.
"You better tell your father you did it Addison" Mom said
"fine! I did it!" I lied
My dad wiped me anyway.
He did it over and over again in the same spot (My back) .
It felt like I was be stabbed over and over again. I covered my face as he did it and couched on the floor of my room.
After a while my back just felt numb.
When he finally stopped.My dad looked at my mom with delight
"She deserved it" He said as he left my room
My mom stared at me for a little while and looked at my bruised back. Then she shook her head and walked out of my room.
I stayed on the floor. Crying in pain.
My back was so sore!
I was crouched in the corner of my room hugging my legs.
My mom walked in.
"Make sure too wear something that covers your back tomorrow at school, okay Addison? Remember if anyone asks where you got that huge brews say you fell down the stairs got it?" she asked
she turned to leave but stopped in the door way and turned around "oh and next time, just say you did it not all the other stuff" she said
"Or you could own up too what you did" I said wiping a tear from my eye
"but then I would be the one getting wiped" she said
I was gonna say something else but she walked away before I could say anything.
I got off of the floor and slowly made my way to my bed and cried in my pillow.
I woke up the next morning with mascara all over my face from crying so much. I got up and moaned from the pain of my back.
I turned off my alarm clock and went back into bed and sat there staring at the ceiling for about 10 more minutes, then I got up and grabbed the nearest T-shirt I saw witch turned out to be this dark purple thing. I put on some skinny jeans and grabbed the small brush I had under my stack of home work and put it in a pony tail. To Finnish off my gross outfit I put on some old convers. I decided not to wear make up because..what if I cry?
Today is Monday...Great....
I stuffed the stack of homework in my gray back pack and walked down stairs.
Mom and dd weren't awake and I was grateful for that. I looked at the covered of food and decided I didn't wanna get more fat then I already was so I skipped breakfast. I took my keys from the table and walked out off the house.
It was raining..and I don't have a jacket...great...
I covered my head with my back pack and ran into my old beat down car.
I'm so happy next year I will be able to get out of this school, and out of my house, and too collage! That sure sounds like heaven!
I drove carfully down the wet road that led too my school.
I pulled into the parking lot and parked into a space far away from the school. I did this because all the spaces close were 'reserved' for the stupid popular people like:
Heather Paige: Probably sluttiest girl in school. All the guys liked her because she was whiling to bang anyone. Every girl in school except me worship her. (typical mean girl)
Lucy Lynn: Everyone loved her because her dad was super rich! and she apparently threw amazing parties (But I wouldn't know because I'm never invited) She was also very slutty
Harry Styles: The biggest player ever! All the girls wants to date him, and all the girls want to bang him. It doesn't surprise me that him and Heather are dating.
Louis Tomlinson: He also played girls, but not as much as Harry. I looked at him as Harry's follower. Lucy and him were dating. He used too be a nerd...but he changed.
Those were the fore main people.
There was also Zayn Malik, Lynda Cathryn, Niall Horan, Liam Payne, Alyssa Perl, and Lexie Fling
They reserved all the parking spots in the front for their stupid expensive cars.
I got out of the car awkwardly, and closed the door behind me.
I walked slowly to the front door of the school and opened it.
I know it's probably not true, but I felt like as soon as I walked in, all my flaws were being pointed out.
How my hair was messy
How my outfit was gross
How I'm not very pretty
How I'm not very skinny
I walked over to my locker witch was a little ways from the door.
I grabbed the books for my first class: Science
Normally I hate science class because the teacher was super hard, and it had basically all the popular guys there: Harry Styles, Louis Tomlinson, Zayn Malik, Niall Horan, and Liam Payne
All in one period, Great.
I closed my locker and turned around too see Heather Paige and her gang in front of me
"I like your shirt Addison, I think my grandma has one just like it" Heather said and laughed with her group
"excuse me" I said tried to make my way out of the middle of the group
"What's wrong? Do we scare you?" Heather asked
I just kinda stood there looking down
"Hey Lucy! does she look scared too you?" she asked Lucy who was on her right
"No, not scared Horrified!" Lucy said and laughed with the rest of them
"Can I please just walk too class?" I asked looked up at Heather
"You know Harry Styles? Actually I don't know why I asked that who doesn't? Well anyways, I saw the way you looked at him and if I see you talk too him, or even look at him again I will make the school hate you more then they already do. are we clear?" she asked
"But I didn't-" I started to say ,
"Don't play dumb with me! Just promise you won't talk too him alright?" she asked
"No problem" I said
Then Harry walked up with all his friends
"Hey Heather why are you talking too that looser?" He asked
"I'm just showing her how too do math" She said smiling at him
"your so nice" Harry said smiling
"Come on girls" Heather said
she walked away and her friends followed, pushing me against the lockers, making me drop my books.
I bent down too pick them up. I was very surprised when I looked up and saw one of the popular people, Louis Tomlinson helping me with me books. when we were finished he handed me the booked he picked up.
"Thank you" I said shyly
"No Problem, It's a good thing that I came when I came huh?" he said smiling
"Yeah, I guess" I said still shyly. I'm not used too people talking too me at school.
"Don't take Heather so seriously, she's just trying too get in your mind. The trick is to not let her get in. She acts tougher then she actually is. Next time she does that, don't be afaid to tell her off. Okay?" He said looking straight at me
"Okay, I'll remember that" I said nodding
"Okay, bye..uh..I didn't get your name?" He asked
"Oh, Addison" I said
"Okay, bye Addison" He said and waved
then I watched him tern around and run too catch up with Harry.
I didn't know there was a nice person in that group, maybe I'm wrong about them, or maybe I was just wrong about him. I felt so awkward talking too him. I felt like a metal awkward kid.
I think he just went over to me because he felt bad for me.
It was still nice though. I don't know why he did it, but I have a feeling he won't be talking to me again as long as he's hanging out with that group.
I pulled myself together and walked over too science class in room 12
I tried to focus in class but I couldn't stop myself from thinking about Louis. I always thought of him as just Harry's little side kick...but maybe there's more too him? I don't understand why he did it. He probably just felt bad for me. I don't want another pity party though. What I really want is someone who can relate with me, and it seems like Louis can't do that. It feels like I'm the only one in the world with my problem.
Some days I feel like I'v lost it.
Some days I feel like I figured everything out
But then School comes and my parents talk too me
and people remind me how ugly I am
Then I loose it again.
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