4. now me
I did not cry.
I did not smile.
I did not talk
I sat there...with no emotions
Riding to the surgery room felt like forever.
I layed there and waited and soon enough they put me to sleep. I felt as if I was in gods presence. It would hurt. But it doesn't. I would cry. But I don't.
I woke up in the recovery room. As soon as I woke I saw paisley in a wheel chair. Tears in her eyes.
Do you know what happened in surgery to you mom said?
No! What happened!
You had a seizure!
Is that why I have this breathing tube in my nose? Yes! Well I visited God but I can't remember what he looked like. You were really close to death Hazel!
I'm scared mom
For the rest of the day we slept.
But not me I had a tear in my eye knowing I could not live.
I got this pain in my legs and I'm dizzy. Mom, I said crying something's wrong i said wailing. Press the button for emergency so I did. Dr. Anne and nurse Kay came in. I got this pain running through me. Oh no she said. She then told me to come with her. I can't walk! Why? I don't know? Go get a stretcher! When nurse Kay came I was lifted into the stretcher. No I was in the MRI.
And we waited.
And finally we were told that my cancer, Ewing's sarcoma grew and spread on my back.
Done I thought.