I don't really know where I'm going with this chapter. I just know that recently I've been thinking a lot about how it's very important to be happy. What would a chapter of this movella be without mentioning Taylor Swift? She recently released a new single called Shake It Off and it's inspired me in a way that I haven't been inspired before. It's inspired me to just be happy in what I do and not let others affect that.
That leads me onto something else that I've been thinking about. A lot of things within your life just don't seem okay. Like, it's not okay to not be happy with your body. It's not okay to want to be by yourself. It's not okay to want to spend time away from your friends. It's not okay to let a break up make you sad. But the thing is, it's all perfectly okay.
Earlier, when I said that it's very important to be happy, I did mean that. I did, it's very important but it isn't important to be happy all of the time. It's important to feel what you're feeling when you feel it. I think that's how you can be truly at peace with things that have happened.
If you feel sad and you need some time away from everything, then go and sit in your room by yourself. Don't worry about being a typical moody teenager or anything like that. Don't worry about telling your friends that you don't want to see them this weekend because you need time to yourself. I think it's very important to enjoy your own company just as much as the company of others. To me, independence is an important thing. You need to know yourself and you need to know your opinions on things and you need to know what you find important. It doesn't matter how long it takes to know yourself, as long as you do one day. So it's okay to want to be by yourself.
It's okay to feel heartbroken. There are so many posts on social media and things in books and songs, loads and loads of songs, about moving on from a break up. There's this whole pride thing about how you should not let a boyfriend/girlfriend get you down if you break up, you should just get up and carry on enjoying life but that's not really how it works. You need to let yourself feel sad about it, you need to let yourself miss that person, you need to let yourself be heart broken for a little while before you try to move on. It's going to be ten times easier opposed to constantly trying to make progress moving on. If you do that, you're going to take one step forward and a million steps backwards. So be sad, miss them and then move on. Once you've gotten past the initial sadness, those break up songs are gonna be the best songs in the world.
It's okay to be unhappy with your body. Hear me out with this one. It's okay to want to change your body. I feel like if you tell somebody you're going on a diet or your starting exercising, then they're going to be all "No! Do not change the way you look you are perfect! You don't need to!" and they see it as a negative thing. They see it as you giving up who you are, but it's not that. If you feel negative about your body then you have every right to change it, you have every right to be able to look in the mirror and feel happy, you don't have to feel like you're giving into something if you want to lose or gain weight. But at the same time, it's perfectly okay to not want to change your body and stay exactly as you are. There is nothing wrong with that.
It goes the same with makeup, I feel. It's okay to wear makeup. That isn't you hiding yourself, that isn't you giving into society or something like that. If you feel happier wearing makeup, then that isn't weak. That is you deciding what makes you happy and doing it. In fact, I think make up is an amazing way to show who you are and what you're feeling. Some days I like wearing pink lipstick and pink eye shadow and having rosy cheeks. Other days I like dark eyes and dark lips. I think makeup is a great thing to show things about yourself. People have to stop seeing wearing make up as "a lie" or "deceiving". So maybe you are enhancing your features, maybe you've changed how you look, so what? By wearing makeup, you can be very honest in who you are. You shouldn't not wear makeup because people think it's deceiving. Just do it if it makes you confident and happy. Also, makeup isn't just for girls. Boys and men shouldn't feel like they shouldn't wear it if they want to. If they want to show who they are and feel more confident by wearing it, then fine! Why is it just something for girls? It isn't unmanly to want to wear makeup and feel more confident and show who you are! It's also okay to not want your makeup to look natural, it's okay if you want to draw your eyebrows on harshly or wear bright orange foundation. People frown upon things like that but if you want to look that way and that makes you happy, then just do it. And if you don't want to wear makeup, then that is fine as well. If you like how you look without it, then don't feel pressured to wear it just because that's what a lot of other people do.
Like every other chapter I write to this, I'm not sure if any of that made sense but I really hope it did. I just think you should feel what you feel when you feel it and that's what will make you happy in life. And if you think doing something will make you happy, don't worry about what others think. Just do it. Your life is too short. You won't get anything from changing to suit other people. :)