Okay, first of all, I could talk about Taylor Swift for the rest of my life but I know for those of you who aren't fans, it must be annoying so it's only fair I leave her out of some of these chapters.
So 2015. I have to say, I think it's kind of strange that somewhere along the line, humans decided that the earth finishing another lap around the sun and us reaching January again is a reason to have a completely new start, but y'know, I'm completely embracing that. I don't think you need to have a fresh start at all if you don't want to, and if you do want to, you don't have to change everything. I just think a new year is a good opportunity to remind yourself of some things that are important, some things you want to work on, if you will. I think everybody should take advantage of that.
I never really bother with resolutions but this year, there are a few things about myself I want to change. Maybe not change, I think I already have those traits, I just want to make sure I act on them.
I want to be a little less tolerant of people in a good way. I don't want to put up with people being mean to me or to people I care about or even just being mean about something I like. If something hurts me, I'm not just going to let it happen, I'm going to take control a little more and I think that's important for everybody.
I have recently gotten a lot more confident with my body. I lost some weight recently and that's really boosted my confidence. I guess I've always wanted to be slim but I'm naturally a more curvy person and that's the way it is always going to be. Celebrities like Demi Lovato and Kim Kardashian are helping me accept that and I love them for it. I have now accepted that I'm always going to be more on the Kim Kardashian side (not that my body is anywhere near as amazing as Kim's, oh my god, she is a queen) than the Kendall Jenner side (Kendall is just as stunning as Kim, that entire family is absolutely stunning, just getting my point in there that there is no right body, as always haha) and that's okay. If you are happy with your body then you go! I am happy for you! If you want to feel more confident in your body, then don't feel bad. Don't think you're not being true to yourself. As long as you are doing everything in a healthy way, then just do what makes you happy!
It is also one of my resolutions to be more accepting of my personality. I like my personality exactly how it is. I'm going to keep being over emotional even if my friends make fun of it a lot (all harmless fun hahah) because I like feeling things so strongly and I couldn't imagine being any other way. I'm going to accept the fact that I am awkward and get nervous about talking to some people, because honestly it's not hurting my life, it's just something I can't really change and I'm accepting it for what it is.
My final resolution is giving myself more time to focus on what I love. I honestly do not want a boyfriend right now. I know that sounds like a kind of profound thing to say for a fifteen year old (not to dismiss fifteen as an age, fifteen year olds are not to be dismissed hahah), but that's what a lot of girls and boys my age are focusing on and I don't want to focus on that. If I were to meet somebody then that's fine, but I just want to enjoy myself. I understand that I'm not going to have forever to live like this, to be looked after by my parents and to have time to myself. I want to write a lot, I want to talk to everybody on this website a lot. I want to listen to my favourite music. I want to reread old books that I loved. I want to read new books. I want to watch films. I want to read books on acting. I want to learn more about makeup. I want to spend a lot of time with my friends. I want a lot of sleepovers. I want to admire boys from a far with my friends. I want to stay up until four in the morning. I want to enjoy school. I want to enjoy moving up to sixth form.
I want you to do what you love too and I want you to be who you really want to be. I want you to make new years resolutions that will really make a difference in your life. If you want to write more, then find the time to write more. If you want to do really well in your exams then encourage yourself to sit down and revise because it will be worth it. If you feel like a bit of a push over, start standing up for yourself because you will feel so much better for it. Like seriously, even if it's just something simple like you want to start winging your eyeliner, then just do it! Do absolutely anything and everything that is going to make you happy because that's what everything in life adds up to; you being happy. And that's what a new year is all about, it's about deciding to make decisions that will make you happy.
I hope you all make 2015 your best year yet. You all deserve a wonderful year :)