Liam pulled the car up by a house a little away from… well yeah everything. I guess this was the place he had been staying and there was no way in hell anyone was gonna find us out here. It felt like miles away from everything, but somehow my phone connection still seemed to be working properly.
“What is this?”
“Old house that me and the boys used to hang out in a lot.”
“The boys? You mean your band?”
“Yeah the band and I used to be here a lot. It belongs to Harry’s family.”
“So this is Harry’s place?”
“It’s his family’s place.”
“He never mentioned his family to me.”
“He changed a lot after he came to this town, did he ever really tell you anything?”
“He told me enough.”
“Are you sure you even knew the guy?”
“I knew what I had to know. That’s everything that matters.”
“I’m just saying… I’ve told you more about his past than he has and no one wanted to tell you about the famous Harry.” “I don’t need to know about his past Liam! I knew the Harry who was in my town. Are you sure it was even the same guy?” “Humans change Kerry but that doesn’t mean they become a new person.”
“Harry was a new person when he got to town.”
“He was always the same Harry when I was around him, are you sure you weren’t the one to change him?”
“How dare you!? Are you blaming me for everything that happened? I told him not to do the things he did the night he died. I only smoked until he got here, so you’re putting all of this on me and expecting me to actually listen to your fucking shit. Liam Payne I must admit I expected more of you, but I guess you’re just another celebrity who thinks he can do whatever he feels like. I’m so done with your shit!”
“Calm yourself. I didn’t mean it like that.”
He continued doing whatever he was in the middle of and left me outside as he went in. I took a walk around in the area and looked at everything. Liam changed me all the time and I was like a bomb whenever I was around him. He was magical and he was strange and I hated him and loved him at the same time. It was strange with this guy. I went inside as soon as I had cooled down. This house seemed so strange to me and I felt really weird when I walked in. I went into the bedroom as soon as I had found it and changed into a pair of really short shorts, a tank top and a button up shirt that I kept open. I wore a pair of boots to the set before I went out to find Liam.
I looked at him as he was going through his own stuff.
“I’m sorry about before. I shouldn’t have said the things I said.”
“No you were right. It wasn’t right for me to say the things I said.”
“That’s the problem with you Kerry. You’re not just a friend anymore. I can’t explain what it is but I just want to have you in any way possible. Let me be there for you when you need it and when you don’t. I can’t just leave you behind. I can’t just let you stay on your own. I really really like you and it’s becoming an issue for me because I don’t know if you like me. So please clear your head and tell me what you want with me, because I’m not sure I can keep whatever this is going on.”
I stared at him for a while and then started playing with my sleeve. I didn't know what to answer to this because I didn't know where I stood in my own life.
"No give me an answer Kerry. I don't wanna do this. I wanna know what's going on and I wanna know what you want with me and where you see us going."
"I don't know."
"Then figure it out because I'm sick of your mind games."
"Well I'm sorry that I can't give you a clear answer. I don't know anything about what I wanna do with my life all I know is that I wanna fuck your brain out and just forget everything because that's how I live my life. It's what I do and it's what I've done for the past few years. First with a guy named Connor, then Harry and as it's looks right now you're going to be the next one that I'll end up calling my boyfriend, take drugs with, get drunk with and have sex with all the time."
"I'm not confused! I'm just lost and I like being lost so don't just me for it!"
He moved to me and held his arms around me.
"You don't need to be lost. I can get you on a path and we can make it together."
"I don't know if I can do it."
"You can. I believe in you."
He moved his hands up around my neck and started kissing me. It felt perfect and I swear in that moment we were infinity.