7. Lier all this time?
I wake up to movement in the bed I lie in. A hands slides around my hip and pulls me into a warm body. His warm body. His light, cold fingertips glide across my side bouncing over every rib on my scrawny body sending chills through it. Next i feel wet lips first on my shoulder making its way up my neck, then my jaw then my ear.
"I should be mad. But knowing one of us is going to die in the next couple days. I cant be." His voice is quiet and soft. Without realizing it a smile creeps up on my face and i turn to see his. His eyes glow even in the dark. But the sockets are dark around them. He smiles back and then kisses me.
"I love you" I say. I want him to know it. Know that i still do and will always. But i also want to know he loves me. I want him to say it back. He just stares. The smile slowly disappears. Has he changed is mind about me? Does he not love me anymore? He comes a little closer and i can feel the air coming out of his nose when he breathes. It makes the hair on the back of my neck stand straight up, and my heart beat faster. The thought of him making me so weak disgusts me if he doesn't love me back.
"I know." I know? Thats all. No i love you back? I feel my smile fade away and decide to turn around and go back to sleep. I want to push his hand off my side but it being there comforts me. So instead i just daze off.