Next name to be called is the girls. The second bowl is more full than the first. The blond girl reaches her hand in the bowl picking up a slip and walking it over to the microphone. She opens the slip and reads "Kaela Foreman". I should feel relieved. But i don't. I want it to be me. I want to be there to help Tobias. I can volunteer, but if i do, i know he will be more disappointed at me then ever, i know exactly what he would say to me. 'You would sacrifice your own life for me, how stupid of you'. And then one of us, or both, would die being mad at each other. But if i die saving him an he survives the games that would be a chance id be willing to take. I know what i have to do.
And just like that the Dauntless run back to their homes and Tobias and Kaela leave. Im too late. In the window of the train i see Tobias staring at me. He looks worried, maybe not to someone else, but i can tell he is. I run up to the train, and jump in grabbing him and kissing him, knowing it will be that last time. Its not long before people-two men- are grabbing me and pulling me away. I try to get free but its no use. Im too weak right now to fight. All i can think of is yesterday how we were both safe and happy. And how something so real can get ripped away from you so quickly.
The two men throw me out of the train and close the doors. When i fall too my knees i begin to sob. I should be strong but I'm not, i never am. Soon my feet take me back to our room and i strip off the dress and throw on one of Tobias dark hoodies and curl up in the blankets. Soon I drift off while tears soak the pillow my head rests on.